buttons, buttons...who pushed my buttons!?
Are there some people, especially those closest to you, who can just push your buttons...rather, your buttons just go haywire around them at times? Uh, yeah. Got that going on.
Actually, the buttons kinda implode and crack and spew...they don't just push. Just being honest.
I've been watching myself closely in these button launching moments as of late. I'm watching them like a bad movie that I should turn off but just don't seem to move to change the channel.
I mean, I dearly, deeply love and respect the person who witnesses (had to scratch out 'causes') the button fiasco happening...so...next time, I'll try "changing the channel "and just see what happens. As I go in the 'lovey' channel again, I can simply choose to button and unbutton without so much tension... I mean, so much about intuition is about being more aware, more perceptive, more conscious in my choices...so I like this analogy to notice, observe and choose to just change the channel.
I think I should name the channel just to make it more powerful. Higher Reasoning Channel. Channel Love. Channel 4 (mind-body-emotions-spirt..all working together). Open to suggestions....
Actually, the buttons kinda implode and crack and spew...they don't just push. Just being honest.
I've been watching myself closely in these button launching moments as of late. I'm watching them like a bad movie that I should turn off but just don't seem to move to change the channel.
I mean, I dearly, deeply love and respect the person who witnesses (had to scratch out 'causes') the button fiasco happening...so...next time, I'll try "changing the channel "and just see what happens. As I go in the 'lovey' channel again, I can simply choose to button and unbutton without so much tension... I mean, so much about intuition is about being more aware, more perceptive, more conscious in my choices...so I like this analogy to notice, observe and choose to just change the channel.
I think I should name the channel just to make it more powerful. Higher Reasoning Channel. Channel Love. Channel 4 (mind-body-emotions-spirt..all working together). Open to suggestions....
posted by Meredith Self at
10:25 PM
4 Comments:
Great insight, Meredith. All of life is a choice, I think. Anyone who's ever read Franz Kafka, or seen Kurosawa's classic film Rashomon, knows that there's always another completely different way to view the same circumstance or event; the choice is always ours. It's having the wisdom to develop, and then trust, your intuitive understanding of how best to achieve a positive outcome in any given situation ... that's what I find most rewarding about your teachings, Meredith, and I thank you for that!
Paul
Okay, check out this synchronicity. The amazing person I am experiencing button pushing with (as we inspire each other...of course, lol) lists Kurosawa's Rashomon as one of his favorite movies.
Your psychic sense is on. :)
I definitely need to choose some new responses. I've been getting intuitive guidance to engage in higher reason, drop the past, stay in my personal power, drop the drama, etc. I'm learning.
And I'm renting the classic Rashomon.
I guess the hardest thing is being able to pull yourself out of the moment in the first place. When I get around people "pushing me to excel in new ways" ( read as pushing my buttons - ha ha ha) sometimes it is a while before I can even recognize I am on planet earth, let alone find a new way to be in the moment.
Not to be a quitter, but if I am lucky that is exactly what i do. I quit the moment by letting anger or upset trigger in inner buddha going "oh we have anger here." And after five years i can get to the point where I know it is time to disengage. Breathe. Wiggle toes. Remember the universe is SO large, etc. Sometimes I just walk away. If it is family or friends, I say through gritted teeth - if I need to- that I am having a hard time and need to walk away. Sometimes that is all I can do. Other times, just saying that switches it enough for me to continue on for another sentence of honesty like "I don't know why, but I am really getting upset right now and I don;t want to be upset, and I can't shift it so I am going outside." miraculously, it may turn into an actual healthy conversation, or it may be enough for me to get out, get grounded and to have not made anything worse. A miracle in itself sometimes.
If it works I use distance to my advantage afterwards. i will pray, and i will meditate on it, and i will do energy work on us both as I visualize us redoing the meeting in a better way. Or sometimes just bless it and pray for a miracle because I can't get past it.
you know all this, of course. i am just saying what I do.
other times, i look for an angel to come help me, because sometimes I can't do it alone.
Thanks for all these ideas, Laura. We can all benefit from using them.
I was raised a conflict-avoider. So I then learned to confront and face and "not hold back." And now I'm learning to not-hold-back "gently."
Some of your ideas help with the gentleness, so thanks. For me right now, I especially like being reminded of taking a calm break and coming back. I like your language for that. :)
I've also found that 'not taking things personally' helps.
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