in moments of doubt, how the answers flow
Sometimes I wonder....
"What am I doing?"
"Am I actually truly helping anyone?"
"Is psychic a distraction from the real inner work of conscious development?" (it can be)
And in those brief moments, all my thousands of moments of magic and beauty seem so far away. All the validation. All the proof. All of it vanishes for a moment, or hour, or day.
And then, without fail...An email, or a call.
"Meredith, I just want you to know I read the blog you wrote about me everyday. You've helped me SOOOO much."
"Meredith. Whenever I take a workshop with you I am so much more open and everything starts flowing. Everything seems so much clearer. I'm so thankful!"
Oh, oh timing. What a gift. How the answers to my questions flood back to me still amazes me.
As the years go on, my heart expands and I see so much beauty and courage of the human spirit. And I see so much more suffering and pain. I feel both more intensely. I like it that way. And I wonder how else I can make a difference, in my own life and the lives of others. And even though I don't operate on feedback, having some now and then still helps churn the engine.
"What am I doing?"
"Am I actually truly helping anyone?"
"Is psychic a distraction from the real inner work of conscious development?" (it can be)
And in those brief moments, all my thousands of moments of magic and beauty seem so far away. All the validation. All the proof. All of it vanishes for a moment, or hour, or day.
And then, without fail...An email, or a call.
"Meredith, I just want you to know I read the blog you wrote about me everyday. You've helped me SOOOO much."
"Meredith. Whenever I take a workshop with you I am so much more open and everything starts flowing. Everything seems so much clearer. I'm so thankful!"
Oh, oh timing. What a gift. How the answers to my questions flood back to me still amazes me.
As the years go on, my heart expands and I see so much beauty and courage of the human spirit. And I see so much more suffering and pain. I feel both more intensely. I like it that way. And I wonder how else I can make a difference, in my own life and the lives of others. And even though I don't operate on feedback, having some now and then still helps churn the engine.
Labels: gratitude, synchronicity
2 Comments:
Love this posting, Meredith. Reminds me of a quote from one of my favorite poets, Rainer Maria Rilke: "Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day."
Or as my teacher says, Live the Experience. Right on.
Oh, and Paul...in your pattern of synchronistically mentioning something for me...I just did a class on the art of intuitive questioning...and what a wonderful addition this is that I sent it to the attendees of the class.
Thank you.
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