reeling in the real

Both are real.

I need space. I need connection.
I want in. I want out.
I need ownership of my learning. I need guidance in my learning.
I need rest. I need activity.
He treats me better than I could imagine. He doesn't treat me how I want to be treated.
I am love. I am not love.
I am clear. I am confused. (or at least sometimes clearly confused)
I am patient. I am impatient.
I am critical. I am accepting.
I am a guardian angel. I am a b&tch.

Both are true.
Both are real.
I choose in the moment what to embrace.
The confusion is when I need it to be one thing.
The clarity is embracing it all.

And the only thing to do is to be me in this moment.
"just show up," my teacher says.
And that...I'm grateful for.

Motto: Love paradox.