11/23/09

this just starts to almost kiss it


The shift the last month has turned my whole perception around. There's nothing new, really...yet everything is new. And words can't touch it. But here I am capturing it the best I can to invite you in...and I've been seeing many mentorees and others around the world stepping in...there is an awakening...

It's as if...
  • I was touching a thread... now I'm the whole ribbon and there's not even a ribbon.
  • I was noticing intuitions... now intuitions are noticing me.
  • I could previously notice various perspectives of corners of mind, of parts of me...now some of the corners just aren't there any more. Merging.
  • I was thinking thoughts....now thoughts come by. Curious.
  • I was separate and knowing there was no separation...now I'm experiencing more of no separation.
  • I was sipping spirit regularly...now there is nothing to sip, I'm swallowed.
  • I was choosing...now the choice is made.
  • I was wondering...now I'm wonder.
  • I was looking for clear direction...now I am clarity.
  • I was being compassionate as much as I could...now I am compassion.
  • I was saying maybe, sometimes, let me grab my cards and check ;)...now I am yes.
  • I was on or off...now I am available.
  • I was up or down with circumstances...now I embrace all.
  • I was kissing myself...now I kiss the sky and I am kissed.
  • I was planning...now I am creation, now.
  • I was reaching...now I am evolving.
  • I was figuring it out...now I am shown.
  • I wanted...now I want what is.
  • I saw colors...now I see spaciousness.
  • I got frustrated...now I giggle.
  • I saw me and you...now I see an emptiness, full of potential, interconnected, evolving.
  • I was one frame of consciousness at a time...now corners of my mind aligned. 
  • I saw fixing...now I see celebrating change.
  • I experienced sweetness often...now sweetness is.
  • I felt bones, muscles, energy...now I feel light.
  • I was thankful for so many things...now I am gratitude.
  • I used to act from intention...now more actions arise naturally.
And all of these statements aren't it! 
They only begin to kiss it. 
They learn towards....point towards...
Because "I" is experienced so differently.  The perception of self is transforming.
Not enlightened at all...I know nothing of that...but illuminating, lightening, loving, simple.
Still figuring it out. Still opening to more allowing, more firmness, more flexibility, more trust, more expression...but that corner of my mind that resists myself is shrinking.

I'm being walked right through the discoveries. Guided to experiences. Guided to understanding.
Sharing as much as I can while not knowing. We all are. Are you noticing?

May you kiss the moment, too. Even if only a moment. Just for this moment.

So many of you are experiencing the shift...
How is your perception changing? What do you notice?
When you notice and try to capture in words, you help stabilize your own transformation and assist others. Thank you for sharing your experiences, your doubts, your wonderings.


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2 Comments:

Anonymous Monisha said...

Dear Meredith, the perception I am noticing right now is a very big, "i'm safe' and then a leap to "i can't be hurt." its kind of a 180 degree pivot from where i was last week. i experienced the same one week apart--the first time I experienced as trauma the second time, i experienced it as release, even freedom. it made me laugh how easy it was..same situation, different me. i am also more aware of 'flow', opening as a medium for flow. Thank you for your inspiring post. - Monisha

November 24, 2009 11:29 PM  
Blogger Meredith Self said...

Hi Monisha,

Love when opportunities come, when some things arise that we may have previously found to be uncomfortable...the circumstance is still there...yet we engage with the circumstance in a different way. This is the way.

And some thoughts and circumstances will not arise so much any more, because we don't give the thoughts attention and attract them. But sometimes they will arise, because we are interdependent and there are many causes happening...it's all in how we engage with the thought!

yeah!

December 12, 2009 11:36 AM  

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