buddhaful

So my newsletters and consultations lately sure sound buddhist! Don't they? All this impermanence, not separateness, etc.

But I'm not buddhist. Why be buddhist when you can be buddha? I recently shared with a client....why be christian when you can be the christ consciousness?

I'm reminded again how I've never been drawn to any lineage. No interest in any particular certificate. No concern for any kind of mastery of any particular form.....except.....my own awareness. That's been my focus since the get-go. Still is.

There were so many times I doubted it. As if, "How could I possibly know or discover? There are so many tried and true ways...why not learn one?" Yet any time I found myself wanting to go for wisdom somewhere else, my energy clearly stopped me and turned me inwards. Occasional supplements in books from others...almost always after I'd just discovered it on my own and the book just validated my sanity.

For example, leading a retreat, I gave my teacher an invitation that asked him to step into his shaman self. Oh, did he! Wow. He was all spirit. Then a day later. My guidance said to him (and I was nervous telling him this because what do I know, he's the teacher, right!), "YOU ARE WARNED! Many get stuck in this state for 30 years, even 30 lifetimes! This is not it. You are not there. It is not true that you no longer have any questions. You just don't have questions in this state. Be both."

And I saw an image of a triangle/diamond like image, 3-D that reinformed my understanding. I previously thought of it as Ego lower and Higher Self, well, higher. I visually experienced it this way. But I was shown more of a triangle and apex. Ego self on left. Spirit self on right. And the true self at apex, merging them. I was so nervous telling him this, ahem, warning him. And it was stern, too! Rebuking, even! We both took notice. By the way, he is so amazing, he embodied it immediately. Always does. How I love him. Anyway, two days later I had the book Big Mind, Big Heart arrive from Amazon. I'd ordered it previously. Knew nothing at all about the book. Got my attention so bought it. And voila. Opened it. There was the triangle (awesome process, by the way. check it out.) Validating. Just glanced at the book.  And teach it now. And this happens over and over. I'm shown.

My own awareness took me in through the drama, through the shadow, down the rabbit hole and into the sky and beauty and love....and just merged me with all of the everything. Into being the awareness itself rather than being aware of something else. Whatdyaknow, my guidance is working for me.  And does for you, too. It wants to lead us all to awakening. Buddhaful. (Unless you ask Gramma Ruth about it. Don't think she'd agree.)