Tales of a Suburban Psychic

hey puppy, I see you

2010-04-13T10:10:00.000-04:00

Adopted a puppy. Australian Shepherd/Poodle mix. Adorable. Tumbly. Love her!

The adoption experience was interesting. 15 year decision. Glad I had my son and sweetheart there.

I wasn't digging it when we got to the puppies. At all. Not vibing. Overwhelmed with all the crazy puppies. I said something about just not digging it, not being there. I can't feel it. (There was no bad vibe. Just off.)

My son said, "Mom. What if instead of investigating them you just love them. Then see."

Wow. What a difference! I was totally in my head. Analyzing. Would this be okay?!? Are you the right match for us? Are you submissive? Are you smart? Are you healthy? Would you love our other dog and vice versa? Are you the right level of energy match (uh...translation...you are insanely energetic...can I keep up with your pace?)

I took a breath. And just noticed them. "Hi, you. I see you." Love is automatic then. No need to love, love happens. And I knew I can love and not adopt. The choice was still to be made. But I could feel the choice now. My mind was spinning in many directions and I couldn't get to my wisdom. I was taking in a lot of energy, too, not just mind thoughts...but was analyzing the energetic data rather experiencing it.

Then my wise sweetheart said, "You're taking in a lot of stimulus right now." He understood. There was a lot of energetic data. I was overwhelmed, actually, with.... the bundles of high energy craziness of all the puppies tearing around...the decision from my perspective..my boyfriend's perspective..my son's perspective...the the dog's perspective..my current dog's perspective...the dog owner...all the older dogs outside barking....the other puppy I fell in love with the day before...I was spinning energetically and analytically. For sure, getting frustrated with myself for being overwhelmed was a useless waste of energy. 'Wanting to know' was a waste of energy. It separated me from the experience itself.

These wise men in my life very lovingly, very gently, without pressure, without judgment, just made simple statements. And I dropped into my soul space, under all the energetic data and all the analytical noise. And I could feel the vibe of my own soul's wisdom. I'm so grateful for the simple and loving way they spoke to me. No pressure. Trusting me. I appreciate that they understand that it isn't that I'm not intuitive, or too sensitive, or not listening, or not caring. They knew I was taking in a lot of information. I listen really deeply. And sometimes this is quick, and sometimes it takes time. And I had gotten stuck in the interpreting it rather than simply experiencing it. They gave me the time I needed. Rebooting and reconnecting is so quick now.

And we adopted a tumbly sweetness with fur and drove home.

And she opens my heart more each moment.

Pics and video of her tumbling on facebook . She's hilarious!

Oh...any ideas for names?

hawk peering down my spiritual ego noise

2010-03-31T15:31:00.002-04:00

My spiritual ego was running a story around my head about how I oughta/shoulda this morning. (Yes. Our ego can even make up a spiritual story about itself...that isn't authentic.)

Some droning on about how certain things should be flowing.

I noticed. Calm not there. Peace of mind felt more like pieces of mind. Grasping at how I wish it were right now. Not light. Nope. Experience has shown me that this tension stops flow, stops presence, is all about the future or past and not this moment. That's not clear ego. That's not spirit consciousness.

Reality check, checked.

I'm thinking something that isn't true and attached to this thought. What thought am I holding? Then I decided....who cares!? All thoughts go ahead and release now. Reboot. Clear the pool, so to speak. Took a breath. Of course, thoughts came flooding back, as they do....but I watched them rather than hold them. Isn't that an interesting thought that 'x' should be happening right now. That's not actually true, but a distorted perception. Interesting. Hello. It actually may even be happening. Let that go.

Decided that this particular thing will happen as it happens. Drop time. I'm open to it. I'm connected to what's true.

Right then, a big hawk came and sat at the fence next to my office and looked right through the glass doors at me. Really peering. Like it wanted to come inside. They usually just come to the creek so I appreciated the big close hello. Hawk, to me, is vision, truth, seeing clearly. It peered at me like I was trying too hard. Yup. It's happening. Got it. At least that's how I took in meaning from the experience. Gave a big heart felt thanks to the hawk, to my struggle, to rebooting, to spirit. Hawk then immediately flew away. Quick reboot.

Just a little suburban shamanism. Everything is inter-connected.

spontaneous realization

2010-03-30T03:33:00.000-04:00

It is an illusion that Awakening is a long, arduous, nearly unattainable thing/state reserved for the monks and those who sit hour after hour on a pillow.

This is not truth.

Awakening is merely being deeply present, in this moment.

The long practice to suddenly become __________ (fill in the blank: clear enough, wise enough, disciplined enough, old enough, pure enough) and then you can awaken.....this is not true.

This makes an assumption that you have to clear, wise, disciplined, pure, etc in order to be 'there.' When 'there' is merely you. There isn't a way. You are the way itself.

Awakening, then, can be spontaneous, it is not bound by time or effort. In fact, it is an effortless effort.

Awakening changes how you experience other experiences. You are not separate. You are awareness itself. And also, you.

Today, call me myth buster.
For those who would want you to believe you must watch the breath. Or sit. Or pray. Or do yoga. Or work with a teacher. Or do anything. Well, love to them. That is their way, a way.

Only you can can know your way, since you are the way. Which may lead you to watch the breath, sit, or pray, or do yoga, or work with a teacher. Or none of those.

View all these words as invitations. As possibilities. But none are the way. You are the way itself. And your own intuitive compass not only leads you, but already is the awareness itself. I believe the best teachers guide you into this. But your best teacher is your own intuition - "inner teacher."

What if you drop expectation that awakening is long, or hard, or must be done a certain way? What if you drop the expectation that it will happen some other time? What if the time is simply now? Then you synch into and become awareness and experience of the moment. You open yourself for the spontaneous realization in any experience....even reading this....here I am, ahhhh,.....
here I am, aware, noticing words.......letters.......the screen....... the computer.......the internet cable......myself reading..... the writer.......millions of people reading this moment......what is aware of this....I am.....

more on Spontaneous Realization

buddhaful

2010-03-25T09:09:00.000-04:00

So my newsletters and consultations lately sure sound buddhist! Don't they? All this impermanence, not separateness, etc.

But I'm not buddhist. Why be buddhist when you can be buddha? I recently shared with a client....why be christian when you can be the christ consciousness?

I'm reminded again how I've never been drawn to any lineage. No interest in any particular certificate. No concern for any kind of mastery of any particular form.....except.....my own awareness. That's been my focus since the get-go. Still is.

There were so many times I doubted it. As if, "How could I possibly know or discover? There are so many tried and true ways...why not learn one?" Yet any time I found myself wanting to go for wisdom somewhere else, my energy clearly stopped me and turned me inwards. Occasional supplements in books from others...almost always after I'd just discovered it on my own and the book just validated my sanity.

For example, leading a retreat, I gave my teacher an invitation that asked him to step into his shaman self. Oh, did he! Wow. He was all spirit. Then a day later. My guidance said to him (and I was nervous telling him this because what do I know, he's the teacher, right!), "YOU ARE WARNED! Many get stuck in this state for 30 years, even 30 lifetimes! This is not it. You are not there. It is not true that you no longer have any questions. You just don't have questions in this state. Be both."

And I saw an image of a triangle/diamond like image, 3-D that reinformed my understanding. I previously thought of it as Ego lower and Higher Self, well, higher. I visually experienced it this way. But I was shown more of a triangle and apex. Ego self on left. Spirit self on right. And the true self at apex, merging them. I was so nervous telling him this, ahem, warning him. And it was stern, too! Rebuking, even! We both took notice. By the way, he is so amazing, he embodied it immediately. Always does. How I love him. Anyway, two days later I had the book Big Mind, Big Heart arrive from Amazon. I'd ordered it previously. Knew nothing at all about the book. Got my attention so bought it. And voila. Opened it. There was the triangle (awesome process, by the way. check it out.) Validating. Just glanced at the book. And teach it now. And this happens over and over. I'm shown.

My own awareness took me in through the drama, through the shadow, down the rabbit hole and into the sky and beauty and love....and just merged me with all of the everything. Into being the awareness itself rather than being aware of something else. Whatdyaknow, my guidance is working for me. And does for you, too. It wants to lead us all to awakening. Buddhaful. (Unless you ask Gramma Ruth about it. Don't think she'd agree.)

what to say when intuition merges into everything

2010-03-16T23:03:00.002-04:00

Been a silent story teller as of late. Been a time of stillness and beauty.

Honestly, the themes of the stories in this whole blog are really changing with the Shift happening since October 2009.

I just don't experience intuitions the same way. Everything feels like intuitive awareness, all the time. I used to want to be off, or on. Now I just am. So this blog needs a new focus.

Sure, there are still knowings and stories and surprises, too. Had some phenomenal insights about protection and feeding on all types of energies in the universe. But that story is for another time.

Right now, I'd like to simply share that intuition is just a natural state. I owe all my ability to shift to the intuition I so trust. So yeah for the stories and learning. And now I surrender to simply, sweetly just being me without so much separation between intuition and thoughts and me and spirit.

Ahh. The absence of drama and presence of just what is. It's beautifully refreshing even as things change so rapidly. As my inner life changes, my outer life is aligning with it. Me likes. Me thinks I'll go be silent some more.

guest post: The Way by Sara

2010-02-23T12:00:00.002-05:00

This guest post brought to you by Sara after a visualization as Essence during mentoring.

Here I am.

Sitting in potential.

I can see the space between the space!

What I want is already here!

In potential. It exists.

I AM potential.

There is no end and no beginning.

It is vast and yet all ONE.

So much space……So much potential!

Flowing, glowing, moving, yet still.

It is peaceful here in the Awareness.

Nothing I need.

It's all here.

I can see all that I want...

joy, happiness, health...

I can see this potential as if it's already here!

For me, for you, for everyone.

I am Potential. Is this The Way?

Yesssssss……

A seeker of peace where peace is already here.

Where everything humanity needs is already manifested,

and simply needs to be seen.

The Way is a way of seeing……

Seeing potential. Feeling it….

BEING the space in between.

The invisible piece of potential.

Where am I now?

I am Peace.

I am Harmony.

I am Bliss. I am HERE!

And there she sits...I can see her.

Like a tiny sparkle of delightful sugar sprinkle

in the midst of pure potential.

So sweet, so eager, so hopeful...

Ahhh...

What bliss it is to be in The Way.

Aware of ALL that is.

Like the shaman's say: heaven on earth.

Work your magic little sprinkle!

Illuminate the space between the space,

the invisible in between the visible…

and let it be seen!

Use your crystal wand and make the medicine!

Share the sweet sugar sprinkles

that feeds all of humanity's pure potential.

Then, taste the sweetness.

Guide them to the space between.

What do they see?

Do they see the space in between?

Do they feel the endlessness?

Will they see?

…..and then back to me.

Here I am.

Sitting in pure potential.

I can feel it around me,

connecting me with all there is.

All realities. All potentialities.

Here I am. Ready.

Many are awakening. Thanks, Sara, for capturing the wordless... and for your beautiful spirit... and for helping others into their luminousness.

sailor-mouth road to awakening

2010-02-02T14:22:00.000-05:00

Cursing has been an incredibly helpful tool to me in awakening. Seriously. Helped me distinguish intuition from thoughts and emotions. Cursing fucking helped meredith big time, yes it did.

I would get a vision, a word, a sense or knowing about some kind of guidance. And meredith didn't trust it yet. So meredith would talk in an exaggerated voice back to the intuitive me, often with a sailor mouth. "I don't fucking get it. Why?" Or "Shit yeah. That's interesting. More about that, please. (I could still be thankful when swearing.)"

Looking back, the attitude helped distinguish the fearful voice of an unaware, unclear ego. I could have a little conversation between Intuitive/Soul/Infinite Self and personality/ego meredith self (pun intended with the name). By distinguishing the voices, with their own posture and rate of speech, I was able to get clearer about each voices' point of view.

This was a critical stage of development for me; to recognize the difference of these parts of me. Did I look crazy talking to myself with different voices. Hells yeah. And didn't care one bit!

Not trying to be all spiritual.
You see...another VERY important revelation came from the swearing techinque. It kept me being me. Not trying to be all spiritual. Not trying to be polite, or sweet or anything; just real. I wasn't trying to be angry or anything either. I was being really honest. I was skeptical. And curious. And unsure.

And I didn't feel like there was any need for pomp and circumstance with my soul self. If figured, if I have an infinite self who is all loving and knowing and all that, she/it/God/whatever will get it. My intention was honesty. Authenticity. And so, authentic language. Cuz nothing quite says, "I just saw a vision of cancer diagnosed before this person knew it" like "fucking A. go figure. how'd that happen."

And man oh man did I curse while I'd teach, too. It would shake people up. Waken them up. People have told me over and over that I helped them just be natural, be themselves. To not be spiritual, but spirited. To be honest with themselves. To not repress.

Dropping Sailor-mouth for just mouth
And....now I just don't curse that much anymore, actually.
Because, the process helped lead to an integration of the personality meredith and infinite self so they are much more merged in alignment and purpose now. Unique Self, infinite spirit embodied in Meredith. No need for different voices within. Much clearer. No need to exaggerate. No separation of these parts of me. No separation with others either. We're all voices of the same whole. I needed to know me just to know others. No need to separate anymore. I needed to distinguish the parts just to come into wholeness. I separated parts within only to integrate and merge them.

I don't keep cursing just cuz it used to work. I dropped it. It's not about the process. The truth is always under the process and technique anyway. Just being real. Just being me. Cursing training wheels are off. No need to curse, unless I do.

Hells yeah.

neutralizing wand in negative energy

2010-01-15T09:19:00.025-05:00

At the last Healing Expansion Session, facilitated with my teacher Jim, we did a journey into Anger, then into Sadness. In the past, I always explored some experience of mine and released it. This time, I went into the Anger of the World, and the Sadness of the World.

During sadness, I noticed many scenes of sadness throughout time. And sadness at it's deepest core is our sense of separation and belief that whatever happening is permanent. One thing I noticed was the sadness of the Earth. We don't live in symbiotic harmony with our environment. It was shaking, like an earthquake (though this itself was not sad) and people were buried. This healing session was going on when the Haiti 7.0 earthquake hit (love to the victims, workers, loved ones...you are not alone). What strikes me is not that I noticed it. Other sensitives told me they felt it, too.

What strikes me is how much boundaries are changing right now.
Now when I notice someone's feelings, or negativity happening, I don't think...those are yours...or wonder if they are mine. I don't try to figure out what the hook is, or why I'm reacting to it...I don't even try to get clear. I simply say, 'Oh, this is experienced. This is here. This is ours. This is happening'

And it is SOOOO freeing! If you suffer, then I suffer, because we are connected. My previous perception of our separateness is gone. But I stay clear even while I experience it. There is suffering here. But I am not the suffering. You are not the suffering. It is only the thoughts that are really the suffering. I can stay clear of the story.

The big leap right now...is..it's not personal. Non-personal awareness.
And the big transformation right now... is...I'm not stuck in analysis in any way...simply witnessing and experiencing...freeing me to be and to act. (of course...with some folks, I'm still getting triggered and then I just stay in the noticing for now...)

It's like a neutralizing wand!
No Separation cuts right into truth of the presence, the moment, the interconnectedness...and no need for drama or buying into any story...yours mine...who cares. No need to understand. No need to tunnel into the thought and wonder why it is happening or fix it. Just noticing the thought, rather than giving it 5 Star treatment!

And in neutrality, in non-personal awareness,...radiance happens! There is a kind of melting away of the story and what is simply is. Right now. Free to be whatever it is. And my role, is simply being with this awareness, being the awareness. And I'm free to help or not help. I'm free to sense guidance and move where the energy takes me. Not from my mind, but my whole body moves.

Many people I mentor are noticing ways they are picking up other people's energy more now with the Energy Shift. Is this happening for you? How are you working with this change of boundaries? You may find previous tools don't seem to work? What are you discovering? What are your questions?

retreat, integrate, repeat

2010-01-12T11:01:00.002-05:00

I remember the day my teacher Jim and I met to plan our first workshop together. When checking in for guidance before our meeting, I saw in my mind's eye a Prairie Dog, ducking into a hole. And the word retreat came to mind. Oh! Retreat! As in, not a 2 hour class but a weekend retreat.

So we sat together, Jim and I, in a space of availability. How might we serve? When I shared my vision of a retreat, I told him but I don't know where. And Jim chuckled, "I have the space. I built it."

And so the conversation, the creation, continued to unfold effortlessly. The goal, the experiences, everything flowed right in. We've done the Pathways Retreat together quite a few times now. Each one effortless, unique, and deeply transformative for us.

I realize now, that the space between retreats is an incredible integration time, and just as necessary as the retreats. Retreat-integrate-repeat. How beautiful all the moments work together. Sometimes I still wish it was all ups and firey and woo! But it can't be. I'm embracing all the experiences and the spaces between...The Current Moment. And on a smaller scale each day, retreat-integrate-repeat.

Next retreat is Jan 22-24th. The prairie dog is being joined by Time and Space and Beyond Time & Space. Um. No animal rep for them at the moment. LOL. It's going to be sooo different with this Energy Shift going on and the changes of 2010. Bring it! Pathways to Soul Wisdom Retreat.

no new year's resolution

2010-01-04T10:10:00.026-05:00

No new year's resolutions.
I release
any grasping
towards anything but
what is.
Here I am.

I surrender. I let go. I dive into the Whole.
I surrender my personal will to the Whole.

I can't know where that will take me.
I can't know what that will create.

But I know that in that place of Presence, I am. I create.
My body is available. My mind is available. My heart is available.

I am not doing, I am being done.
I am not moving, I am moved.
Action still happens. In the moment, in the movement, in surrender.

My will is merged with the whole.
And in this state of being, all the wisdom, power, joy is moving as me.
I bring my awareness to this current.
I merge with the current until I sense no difference between it and me.

I travel this unknown road.
I travel everywhere and nowhere.
I travel this year, this decade, today.
Just for today.
I surrender.

2009 in review- see The Shift

2010-01-01T13:15:00.005-05:00

Here are a few posts from 2009 (most recent first). See how things built to prepare for the Energy Shift at the end of 2009?! Fascinating.
From keeping energy clear and 'separate' (not picking up negativity)...to feeling the connections with all...to simply being...to embracing discomfort and everything....to cosmic expansion and no-separation (there isn't even negativity energy to pick up).

2010 ushers us into a huge shift in humanity's consciousness. We're entering a new stage, the 5th dimension, a merging, and I look forward to experiencing it with you.

-energy shift recipe - serve hot
-a headache! yeah!
-intuitive doing >> intuitive being
-a connected cow & me & you
-i just want to be off today
-why people turn to psychics in this economy

What do you look forward to in 2010?

energy shift recipe - serve hot

2009-12-10T10:01:00.007-05:00

Energy Shift Recipe. Pass it on.

Ingredients:
~ Firey sparkles of timeliness
~ Rolling waves of boundaryless spaciousness

Preparation:
~ Merge together with a sense of everythingness and nothingness.
~ Add a dash of evolutionary momentum the intensity of thunder and the pace of creating mountains.
~ Chuckle with the delicious ironic effortlessness of such a monumental creative task.

Stir. Notice what you thought you were making was already here beyond the thought! Ha!
Not what you were expecting. Ahh!

Brings to awareness all you truly are. I AM. Voilà!

Serve to all humanity. Pass it on.

9 reasons to adore nakedness, i mean tarot

2009-12-03T09:09:00.002-05:00

Nakedness. Seriously. Naked women, naked truth, transparency. You pick the order.
Singing. Your inner wisdom doesn't just speak to you with cards, it SINGS to you! A raw, sweet, in your face song. Every song is different, but an endless possibility of songs, a complex range of notes. Velvety and grinding. Yum.
Makes the unseen seen. Whether it's your emotions, your thoughts, how energy is flowing, possibilities, emptiness, consciousness...you can see and experience vibrations happening in a more concrete way.
Helps the overly heady. Holistic patterns, rhythms. Helps bring right brain thinking, not just linear thinking. Also, drops you into your body by activating your hands touching the cards. For someone who can be overly analytical, I find it helps balance me and get me into heart-mind.
Symbol heaven. Objects, Colors, Directions, Planets, Signs, Animals, Numbers. Lightness, Darkness....so many gateways to get your attention and connect with meaningful insight. A thorough collection and range of consciousness to draw upon.
Storytelling. Rather than just a word or vibe, a story lays out before you. A pattern. A pathway that draws you deeper into you, deeper into truth, deeper into creation...if you listen to the whispers of the story, and the characters, and the theme...beautiful.
Answers, nice. Learning to question, priceless. Layouts teach you to ask, analyze, organize. And then when there are no cards, your ability to examine complex relationships is right there, in a layout/spread in your mind. Insights even come to a particular location in a 'frame' in my mind...on the right are possibilities, on the left are motivations. Below, what is hidden, above are actions. I don't need cards to have insights or visions show up in certain places within my mind. Organizing clarity.
Appearing friends. The cards just show up in my mind sometimes. They are friends. Honest friends, tricky friends, mischievous friends, sweet as honey friends....And just like different friends meet different needs, the cards just dance right up into my consciousness and say hello, here is what you seek....look closely at this part of me.
Nakedness. Seriously. Strip down and see the truth, baby...it's staring right at you.

Tools are just tools. I see naked, someone else sees whatever they see. The tool bearer is where the insight lays. Cardsl can really help people who are visual or clairvoyant. Can also help someone who is claircognizant (I just know! This is my primary sense.) to learn to identify intuitions. I've never taught a class specifically on using cards, but this tool was instrumental in helping me trust and be accurate. Maybe someday.

Do you use or like Tarot? Or what helps you gain insight?

this just starts to almost kiss it

2009-11-23T11:00:00.000-05:00

The shift the last month has turned my whole perception around. There's nothing new, really...yet everything is new. And words can't touch it. But here I am capturing it the best I can to invite you in...and I've been seeing many mentorees and others around the world stepping in...there is an awakening...

It's as if...

I was touching a thread... now I'm the whole ribbon and there's not even a ribbon.
I was noticing intuitions... now intuitions are noticing me.
I could previously notice various perspectives of corners of mind, of parts of me...now some of the corners just aren't there any more. Merging.
I was thinking thoughts....now thoughts come by. Curious.
I was separate and knowing there was no separation...now I'm experiencing more of no separation.
I was sipping spirit regularly...now there is nothing to sip, I'm swallowed.
I was choosing...now the choice is made.
I was wondering...now I'm wonder.
I was looking for clear direction...now I am clarity.
I was being compassionate as much as I could...now I am compassion.
I was saying maybe, sometimes, let me grab my cards and check ;)...now I am yes.
I was on or off...now I am available.
I was up or down with circumstances...now I embrace all.
I was kissing myself...now I kiss the sky and I am kissed.
I was planning...now I am creation, now.
I was reaching...now I am evolving.
I was figuring it out...now I am shown.
I wanted...now I want what is.
I saw colors...now I see spaciousness.
I got frustrated...now I giggle.
I saw me and you...now I see an emptiness, full of potential, interconnected, evolving.
I was one frame of consciousness at a time...now corners of my mind aligned.
I saw fixing...now I see celebrating change.
I experienced sweetness often...now sweetness is.
I felt bones, muscles, energy...now I feel light.
I was thankful for so many things...now I am gratitude.
I used to act from intention...now more actions arise naturally.

And all of these statements aren't it!
They only begin to kiss it.
They learn towards....point towards...
Because "I" is experienced so differently. The perception of self is transforming.
Not enlightened at all...I know nothing of that...but illuminating, lightening, loving, simple.
Still figuring it out. Still opening to more allowing, more firmness, more flexibility, more trust, more expression...but that corner of my mind that resists myself is shrinking.

I'm being walked right through the discoveries. Guided to experiences. Guided to understanding.
Sharing as much as I can while not knowing. We all are. Are you noticing?

May you kiss the moment, too. Even if only a moment. Just for this moment.

So many of you are experiencing the shift...
How is your perception changing? What do you notice?
When you notice and try to capture in words, you help stabilize your own transformation and assist others. Thank you for sharing your experiences, your doubts, your wonderings.

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a headache! yeah!

a headache! yeah!

2009-11-09T23:56:00.002-05:00

The current energy shift in the atmosphere this month has been something! Never experienced anything like it! My bones ache! My skull feels too small and my hips feel as if they are being stretched on a rack! And I'm loving it.

I feel as if I've stepped into the matrix and taken the red pill, over and over again, deeper into awareness. It's ecstatic, but also simple. It's a very embodied energy, not spacey. (Though this has to sound a bit odd to the mind. Only the heart mind and body mind can experience this.)

This energy is guiding me through greater recognition of ways I prefer not to be uncomfortable. When in reality, I know some discomfort ignites and teaches me. Don't you all have some past experiences that were hard but you learned so much from? During the experienced I mustered through. Well not any more. Now I'm embracing. The pain, the pleasure can all be bliss.

The headaches actually have several layers. I've had it for a month. A psychic headache. I've never had a problem grounding so this is totally new experience for me. Why headaches? Some of the reasons include: Receiving energy transmissions, physically being shown the effect of various thoughts, moving energy from crown to every cell of the body, and others.

Special shout out of gratitude to Jane Beard. We've been tracking the energy together. She is also sensitive to energy and clear and open to follow it. In waves we experience similar things at the same time or day! And if we don't follow the wave, it actually hurts. If we don't resist, it's amazing. Restless nights. Deep sleeping nights. Racey intense energy. Still energy. Must have hands in dirt. Walk outside. Go into the moonlight. Sensations of immense gratitude. Sensations of losing control. And the list goes on. Key to this is following the guidance now. Note: not 15 minutes from now! We even had a morning where we both felt controlled. I was thinking I'm just a puppet. She was thinking invasion of the body snatchers. We laughed and noticed what we are being shown as an evolving being of creation. We're being walked through the teachings. I'm so grateful for sharing this experience with Jane. It's helping clarify the wisdom of these teachings.

Most people I've spoken to think they are doing something wrong because their system is not responding as usual or their thoughts/emotions are intense. But not at all. It's unbelievable how effortless everything is. I've got to make some videos to help convey this energy to you. And I'm doing a teleconference Wed, 11/11, to share more about it and evoke the wisdom and frequencies for you to experience. Join! Not for the headaches (which everyone doesn't experience), but for being so in love with being. http://sparkintuition.com/w-mergingMindSoulTeleconference.php (you can listen to the recording now)

spot readings to focus your attention to expand

2009-10-19T12:57:00.001-04:00

Interested in a spot reading?

I'd be happy to tune into an area you can focus your attention on now to expand your conscious awareness. This is really my primary gift as an intuitive. With the many various things that you can possibly focus on, what can you focus on now that is most aligned with your soul, awareness and potential for expansion... right now.

Just add a comment if you're interested and I'll check in for as many of you as I can.
UPDATE 10/27/09. This post is now closed for further spot readings, but I'll plan to offer them again! Please subscribe to catch them next time. Thanks and much love.

snakes talk to me

2009-10-16T12:04:00.000-04:00

Okay. Snakes don't exactly talk to me. Spirit talks through snakes to me.

Okay. Spirit doesn't exactly talk through snakes to me, spirit talks through everything to me.

Now...on to the snake story...

I went for a lomi lomi massage (can you say yum!) and was early for my appointment. I thought to go in because I could start early, but my attention drew me around the parking lot to the side of the building. Sure, fine, a nice little walk on the grass before my appointment. Why not. I wanted to get the relationship thoughts I was having out of my head so I could just enjoy the appointment. Uneventful. Grounding. Not really sure why I'm here. Walk back towards studio and that's when it happened...

Check out the garter snake there! My vibes start pinging. Pay attention. Hello there little guy. What's up. I start watching. Oh, 2 snakes! Laughing. Okay, spirit, I'm paying attention. I know you don't see two snakes in wild together very often. What do you want to show me about relationships. I'm open. (I know that I'll notice what I need to notice.) So here's what I notice:

One snake leaves the other snake. (Really?I breathe into whatever is so. Snakes are all about shedding and growth. Non-emotional. Are we outgrowing each other? Is my big expansion lately going to move me away from this relationship? I'm open to guidance.)
Then the snake comes back, hmmm, and gets the other snake to follow. (Not sure if this is me or him. Seems irrelevant, no vibe there. Seems like either of us can venture off and come back. Ping. Independence. Curious. Seems the message is growth and sharing, I help him grow.)
Then the other snakes leaves, and comes back and gets the first snake. And this pattern repeats several times. (Okay. We don't outgrow each other. We each grow our own ways. We do our own thing and reconnect with each other. We each teach each other. And we each are shedding big patterns and growing. Got it. Thanks, loves.)

It was beautiful watching this continuous dance back and forth between the snakes. And they finally wrap all around each other. It's lovely. I get it. Thanks for teaching me more about interdependence.

Spirit is everywhere, everything. I notice what I notice. And everything teaches me (in surprising ways). And everything supports me (in surprising ways). And everything is wonder.

How does spirit talk to you through animals and nature?

fiercely gentle

2009-09-24T10:19:00.004-04:00

Facilitating the Pathways to Soul Wisdom Retreat this past weekend, we were challenged.

You have gathered enough! How many books have you read already!? You are guilty, yes, guilty of this Gathering. Why guilty? Because you are not present enough with the Innocence. Sure, you will keep learning and seeking, that is natural, but begin turning within first, within more. Give yourself more space to experience and less time to grasp or do it right.

Like a mom with her baby, today: feed when hungry, change diaper when soiled, comfort when crying, celebrate the little things like a coo, cry or crawl. Tomorrow would you say, "I already fed you! I changed your diaper yesterday so why should I change it again today!" No. Do not wait for 'it' to be done...to be 'there.' Be authentically present to your life, like a mom to her baby, every day.

This invitation, and the experiences we were guided to (by the council of grandmothers), was "fiercely gentle" as one participant described it. Accepting everything as it is, accepting ourselves as we are now, paradoxically, is the way to change. Embracing everything. Looking forward to challenges. Over and over during the weekend there was spaciousness. Not explanations. Not fixing. Not solving. And in the spaciousness, in just being, so much was done. Oh, so much.

I am immensely, noticeably different. And I experience the change without excitement. Just is.

intuitive doing >> intuitive being

2009-09-15T12:33:00.002-04:00

Old me: Intuitive doing

When I started consciously using my intuition, I NEEDED it. I had a gazillion questions about everything. I was constantly seeking intuitive guidance and re-informing myself about what is true. Intuitive learning. There was effort. Grasping.
Trying to understand.

New me: Intuitive being
Now, I'm just so much more chill with it. Intuitive awareness is a more integrated part of me. Less questions and more flow with it. Less effort and just a natural state of being. Guidance pops in when needed. I notice what is light for me. My guidance is clearer, my soul freer. Soulightenment.
Living the experience.

Just paved a new habit. That's all.
Nice time to check in and notice if intuition is an effort. Just notice. No judgment.

What will make intuition more natural, more effort-less, more free? I wish this for you.

queen mum at the chiropractor & my nagging frustration with names

2009-09-02T09:19:00.004-04:00

With tears in her eyes, the administrative assistant at the chiropractor's office pointed to a picture of her grandmother on her desk and we both knew silently that she passed away. "Last night," was all she could say.

I went and got my adjustment and got the sense of a bold woman with big energy around her head, really wide at the head, unusually wide. And the name "...izzie" or something similar. I felt I didn't quite have it but close enough. The energy was there, but very subtle.

On the way out, I stopped by the desk, and since we've talked and shared about intuition lots of times, I asked, "I'm getting a name, something like, 'izzie, ozzie'. Is that what your grandmother is called, or did she have a nickname for you?"

"Yeah. Her name is Dottie." Yup. Somewhat close, not on the money, but close enough to connect which is all that matters. (I noticed that I hadn't really asked for louder, clearer or clarification...should do that next time.)

She went on to share about how wonderful her grandmother is and how lucky she was to know her. Then she told me they all called her Queen Mum and she always wore big hats. Ahhh..that explains the unusual energy I felt around her head. Funny. She says she wishes that when she gets pregnant some day she would be able to share it with her grandmother.

"I think your grandmother wants you to know she's here, sweetheart. She knows. She will know when it happens. She's still here."

The woman smiled.

I left happy to help with the connection. But honestly, I also felt this nagging frustration about names. Sometimes they are so clear with accents! I want to practice this listening. But whatever works....

a leo moving from wings to head

2009-08-28T11:22:00.003-04:00

I have no problem leading. Even as a child.
Thing is...I usually led from the wings!

A supervisor once pulled me aside to ask me how on earth I manage to orchestrate and lead an entire event where I stay behind the curtain and where everyone else gets the credit...where participants genuinely feel empowered and successful!!??

I winked at her. "You noticed? Teehee.
I just hold the vision and believe in people."

She told me it was remarkable; that she had never seen anything quite like it. A major event that was in every way envisioned, initiated by me and pulled off by me...yet event day...I was humbly enjoying the event without credit.

Another reason I could do that is I know how to be visible and I know how to be invisible. A mentor told me that again recently. I can turn my energy up and hugely fill a room, or turn it down so I'm relatively unnoticeable.

As a Leo, a major aspect of my soul path though...is to not stand behind others...to be up front, to lead (and also to not stand behind anyone in interpersonal relationships...that's more about interdependence than leading...but I digress). My guidance has been telling me to lead for years. And...I'm doing it, putting myself out there, being transparent, sharing.

Work in progress: serving with visibility. I'm an introvert and it isn't easy being out in front of of so many people. However, it is easy doing what I love, being me, and serving. So....Roarrrr!

What is your soul purpose? How do you see your soul purpose?

sonia's papa visited during a reading

2009-08-24T17:29:00.001-04:00

Our loved ones want us to know they are with us in spirit and love us. Our family roots are strong in us. I remember when I didn't want to pass on messages like the one below. Now I love it. A few clients recently told me that I am their own Lisa Williams. Glad to serve.

One day, a client says she feels spirits around her and always has. She wonders what I see about her deceased loved ones.

"Hmm. Not getting much. In fact, it feels really far away and not really connected to you. I don't really feel a message for you the way I usually do. It's different. Hmm. Here is what I do see:

I see a Papa. He's at the head of a table. Papa. There's a woman with a needle also, she's sewing. And there's something about writing. There are others. It's a big table, like a feast. He's leaning in, curiously, with his shoulder towards me, and rubbing his chin some. He's direct. Curious. Strong. Even giving orders. Barking. But positively, not negatively. He doesn't feel connected to you. Not sure who he is. But he's showing himself to me. He wants us to know he'll always be here and will always look out for the family. And that the family is HUGE."

Client leaves. A few hours later I learn that the father of one of my teachers, Sonia Choquette's Papa, had just passed away. I passed the message on to her. I think he wanted her to know how big the family is now. She's touched so many people. Not so sure why I'm sharing it today, almost a year later...but I guess a few of you out there will benefit from knowing this story. I sure loved visiting with him. What a gem.

Deceased loved ones have many ways of communicating with us.
Dream visits. Visits to others to confirm to us. Clairvoyantly. Clairaudiently. Moving objects or turning on/off electrical items in home. Animals...

Do you connect with loved ones in spirit? How?

asked, answered, ignored, whoops

2009-08-03T10:17:00.005-04:00

My intuition tried to warn me, but nooooo. I reasoned it away. Well, at least I noticed that I didn't notice my vibes --not once, but twice in one day!

Driving from DC to the burbs, I want to take the scenic George Washington Pkwy. I get this sense that 'it's a longer way'. In comes rational mind with such speed and confidence retorting, "It's not longer. It's more beautiful. Just take the pretty way." Rational mind had a good point, but I hadn't recognized that the first sense was a warning, non-rational, good information.

Entering the 2-lane parkway and it was dead stopped with traffic with no way to get off. I laughed a Muahahaha laugh and said thanks to my intuition for trying to save me time. It's not all that pretty at 0 miles per hour. LOL.

Fast forward to later in the day. Repeat of the same story, spare you details. Yup. Twice in one day! Yikers. First instinct, spot on. Whoops. (Same day, I did catch one vibe though that warned me quickly slow down, and sure enough I missed a speed trap.)

Suffice it to say, I wonder what else I'm missing. It's exciting to think about all the potential help there is! Intuition saves time....little things, big things. I'm quiet skilled at noticing the big things (you know, soul purpose, cancer and healing, people's strengths and how they hold back, things like that...), but I'm going to be more and more open to all the little things, too...and catch more in time. I know some people who are really good at intuiting the little things, but not so much the big things. I have an idea! What if I don't think of it as little/big!

My intention: In ALL ways I welcome my intuition to inform and save me time. I'm going to start asking regularly. So for example when I get in the car, 'I welcome guidance for a safe and an efficient trip.' I'm open to moment-to-moment guidance to save time and be of service. Speak loudly please while I get better at this part. Thanks! (Any ideas and suggestions welcome.)

you might also like:
- why the gas station now (embarrassingly similar story)

top 10 responses to "i'm a psychic"

2009-07-30T19:33:00.009-04:00

So...what do you do for a living? A psychic, eh?

Oh! Read me now!
Oh no! You're not reading me now, are you!???
You! hahahahaha! You! hahahahahahah! I've never met a psychic before. Sorry for laughing. hahahahaha! You don't look like a psychic! hahahaha!
I think I'm intuitive, too. There was this time when.....and then.....and then.....and then...
Oh. (insert conversation change here)
I believe in that.
So, like, so, how do you do that exactly?
Tell me the lottery numbers or what good are you.
Can I have your card?
How fulfilling to teach others about intuition. There's nothing more important than trusting oneself.

Do you tell people you are psychic? Or intuitive? It's enjoyable.

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downtime, rinse and repeat

2009-07-27T10:13:00.004-04:00

I ate yesterday, why eat again today?
I slept yesterday, why sleep again today?

It's like that with meditation, loving, generosity....gotta repeat.

I went away to the mountains this past weekend. I felt my whole system reboot. Nothing to do but whatever I wanted and I wanted some downtime. All the way downtime. Nothing to get done downtime. Nothing to learn downtime. Nothing to share with anyone downtime. Hours watching hummingbirds downtime. Check out the three buck cross the backyard downtime. Jacuzzi downtime. Meditation (non-contemplative) downtime. Cards with Chad downtime.

Ahhh.

Got back yesterday. Immediately noticed myself looking around the house and thinking of things to get done. Painting. Organizing. Cleaning. Whooaaaaa. I noticed a way I escape but it doesn't really give me full downtime. I'm not really ending up rested. Ah ha. Good information. Sooooo... I need a daily mountain getaway. Turning it all off when at home. And I need to get my house beautious again for serenity.

Putting up a picture of a mountain in my office, too, as a reminder of the wisdom that the world just goes on and on and on. Pace.

Downtime. Rinse and repeat.