check's in the mail...really

I get this sudden insight that I'm going to get a check in the mail. Okay, I wonder. Why would I get a check in the mail? Is that wishful thinking or actually going to happen? Doesn't seem like a gift, nor from anyone I know.

I chuckle to myself and the Universe that I'll happily accept checks in the mail. Then I think to myself, why not write the amount myself! So I make up a ridiculous number of zeros. And it occurs to me, "No, how about 100 or 200 dollars, just enought to justify to myself a little purchase I wanted to make." That'll work.

Well, guess what. In my mailbox the next day was a check for $169. My mortgage company sent back escrow overage for the year. I've had mortgages for 20 years and in the past that amount has never been sent to me in a check but applied to the next year.

Fun. I didn't manifest it coming, I just tuned into it coming. Now to manifest with zeros.

are you getting anything?

Just a regular conversation with a friend or family member, hey, hello, howareya. At some point, it's not uncommon for me to hear, "Are you getting anything on that?"

Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I don't want to, and let people know I'm not objective in this case. And I'm completely comfortable telling others no. I'm happy to help, but sometimes I just want to be 'off' and be a friend and not feel as if I always have to have wise insight for someone. And sometimes I feel that the emergency beeper I've committed to with the Universe (beep me when you need me, I'm available) was accidentally publicized by me.

There are a few people who've I've given blanket permission to always ask, any time. And who have given me blanket permission to always suggest. Making it more comfortable for us, clear about boundaries, and because it gives us both opportunities to explore things in new ways (something I wouldn't do with a client, for example).

What I don't want right now is to always feel 'on' .... free to be on and off at will. I'm curious how this will develop over the years. Perhaps it's just still a transition going from 9-5 to 24/7. I know that even with 24/7, I need my me time and I'm still exploring the best ways to carve that space.

got "snagged" by son's intuition

Intense that one was. My psychic son knew what was happening (totally snagged me) in a 'delicate' situation and called me out on it very directly with a question. If I'm not straight with him, I risk shutting his intuition down...that's a no-no...if I'm straight with him, oh, man, there's going to be some explaining to do. Is he really ready to know the truth about this topic?

"Yup, you're right on. That is what's happening." I tell him.

If he's old enough to get it intuitively, he's old enough to talk about it. So we did. Like it or not.

intuitive bonus or threat?

If I get a vision, insight or whatever about something related to my own life and another person, is it lording over the other person with an unfair advantage!? Is it okay if I'm right about the insight? Is it not okay if I'm wrong about the insight?
(Surely when people have an 'idea' it isn't always right either, so why should an intuition "have to be" right?...And sometimes the insight is about something somewhat negative, but truth even when not so positive can be of great assistance....but I digress...)

So if I notice something 'unseen' or that hasn't happened yet, does that give me an unfair advantage?

How about a situation in a relationship or partnership where one person is far more intelligent than another....should the intelligent one stop being intelligent to make the field more 'fair'?

If someone has previous experience in a work situation, for example, should the person withhold it so as not to threaten a colleague?

I'd say not.

So long, of course, as the intelligent (intuitive, experienced, whatever) person isn't manipulating, taking advantage of, condescending to, or trying to hurt the other, then having the ability in the partnership is a bonus. Right?

Or do I need to make it more of a bonus, a gift. I know sometimes I hesitate, don't want to interfere, and sometimes only share intuitions in more concerning areas. Is this occasional issue my own confidence in communication, or is it others' lack of confidence and desire to not have something be seen, for whatever reason?

I think I'll explore ways for it be a benefit to those around me in a non-intrusive way...like a bonus or a gift. And explore alternative ways to communicate intuitions, like...."My vibes say..." "I wonder if this could work for us?" "Do you think it would be interesting if we tried this?" "I have the sense this may be happening, do you have any thoughts or clarification on that?" "Let's invest in this stock :) "

Or perhaps I'll play a sarcastic act as Emma the Omniscient just to swing it another way and see what happens. Oh, wait, I've done that...oops...annoying. Or maybe sometimes I'll just go with the ignorance is bliss. Oh wait, I've done that....oops....can you say 'blind sighted'?

I'll stick with Bonus.

LEARN, LEARN...MORE, MORE!

Get more! Do more! Have more! Know more! Be better! Fix! Fix! Fix!

Learn! Acquire! Succeed! Master!

Such a fast paced life. It's everywhere. The soccer team must win! The participants at the six sensory playgroup must succeed! I must be a better intuitive and get more, more, more for my clients. Figure out and be a master at so many things.

Whoaaaaaaa. In comes my son. Just being. A nice model. Happy to do well, happy to explore, happy to just be, happy to relax, happy to learn, happy to wonder, happy, happy, happy. He isn't struggling. He isn't busy. He isn't overwhelmed. He isn't trying to master everything. His drive is more about experiencing what he wants and not being pushed by others. Even when he's learning, he tends to be more relaxed and curious and wonderous.

He's enjoying his experiences, rather than trying to be the best at them. What a concept to adapt into wisdom.

perhaps his foot is broken?

Soccer mom. Gooooaaaaaallll!!!

At the game a boy complains that his foot hurts and doesn't know why. He played in the game anyway.

I mentioned to his mom, "I wonder if he may have a small break in his foot. Might be worth having a doctor check out. Who knows."

Sure enough....it was broken.

I've made an agreement that I'm willing to be of service where I can without prying. Otherwise, the antennae's are down. It's nice to throw in little tips like that in a gentle way though. Hope he heals up quick now.

um, I changed my question

I was doing a reading for someone, after having already done about 8 readings. I was doing the reading blind, which means the person thinks of the question without telling me. I love that. Keeps me super focused on the energy I am sensing since I have no pre-conceived notions at all about the topic.

So I started reading, I started to get a sense of some energy but it was very vague and didn’t quite understand it yet, when suddenly it just.... disappeared...... I tried to focus, but couldn’t get it back. I thought perhaps I’d lost my train of thought from doing so many readings or something and said to the person, “hmm…now where were we…I lost track.”

She started laughing and said, “Um. Sorry. I just changed my question.” We both cracked up. All in a days work. I love my job.