9 reasons to adore nakedness, i mean tarot

1. Nakedness. Seriously. Naked women, naked truth, transparency. You pick the order.
2. Singing. Your inner wisdom doesn't just speak to you with cards, it SINGS to you! A raw, sweet, in your face song. Every song is different, but an endless possibility of songs, a complex range of notes. Velvety and grinding. Yum.
   
3. Makes the unseen seen. Whether it's your emotions, your thoughts, how energy is flowing, possibilities, emptiness, consciousness...you can see and experience vibrations happening in a more concrete way.
4. Helps the overly heady. Holistic patterns, rhythms. Helps bring right brain thinking, not just linear thinking. Also, drops you into your body by activating your hands touching the cards. For someone who can be overly analytical, I find it helps balance me and get me into heart-mind.
5. Symbol heaven. Objects, Colors, Directions, Planets, Signs, Animals, Numbers. Lightness, Darkness....so many gateways to get your attention and connect with meaningful insight. A thorough collection and range of consciousness to draw upon.
   
6. Storytelling. Rather than just a word or vibe, a story lays out before you. A pattern. A pathway that draws you deeper into you, deeper into truth, deeper into creation...if you listen to the whispers of the story, and the characters, and the theme...beautiful.
   
7. Answers, nice. Learning to question, priceless. Layouts teach you to ask, analyze, organize. And then when there are no cards, your ability to examine complex relationships is right there, in a layout/spread in your mind. Insights even come to a particular location in a 'frame' in my mind...on the right are possibilities, on the left are motivations. Below, what is hidden, above are actions. I don't need cards to have insights or visions show up in certain places within my mind. Organizing clarity.
   
8. Appearing friends. The cards just show up in my mind sometimes. They are friends. Honest friends, tricky friends, mischievous friends, sweet as honey friends....And just like different friends meet different needs, the cards just dance right up into my consciousness and say hello, here is what you seek....look closely at this part of me.
9. Nakedness. Seriously. Strip down and see the truth, baby...it's staring right at you.

Tools are just tools. I see naked, someone else sees whatever they see. The tool bearer is where the insight lays. Cardsl can really help people who are visual or clairvoyant. Can also help someone who is claircognizant (I just know!  This is my primary sense.) to learn to identify intuitions. I've never taught a class specifically on using cards, but this tool was instrumental in helping me trust and be accurate. Maybe someday.

Do you use or like Tarot? Or what helps you gain insight?

sonia's papa visited during a reading

Our loved ones want us to know they are with us in spirit and love us. Our family roots are strong in us. I remember when I didn't want to pass on messages like the one below. Now I love it. A few clients recently told me that I am their own Lisa Williams. Glad to serve.

One day, a client says she feels spirits around her and always has. She wonders what I see about her deceased loved ones.

"Hmm. Not getting much. In fact, it feels really far away and not really connected to you. I don't really feel a message for you the way I usually do. It's different. Hmm. Here is what I do see:

I see a Papa. He's at the head of a table. Papa. There's a woman with a needle also, she's sewing. And there's something about writing. There are others. It's a big table, like a feast. He's leaning in, curiously, with his shoulder towards me, and rubbing his chin some. He's direct. Curious. Strong. Even giving orders. Barking. But positively, not negatively. He doesn't feel connected to you. Not sure who he is. But he's showing himself to me. He wants us to know he'll always be here and will always look out for the family. And that the family is HUGE."

Client leaves. A few hours later I learn that the father of one of my teachers, Sonia Choquette's Papa, had just passed away. I passed the message on to her. I think he wanted her to know how big the family is now. She's touched so many people. Not so sure why I'm sharing it today, almost a year later...but I guess a few of you out there will benefit from knowing this story. I sure loved visiting with him. What a gem.

Deceased loved ones have many ways of communicating with us.
Dream visits. Visits to others to confirm to us. Clairvoyantly. Clairaudiently. Moving objects or turning on/off electrical items in home. Animals...

Do you connect with loved ones in spirit? How?

asked, answered, ignored, whoops

My intuition tried to warn me, but nooooo. I reasoned it away. Well, at least I noticed that I didn't notice my vibes --not once, but twice in one day!

Driving from DC to the burbs, I want to take the scenic George Washington Pkwy. I get this sense that 'it's a longer way'. In comes rational mind with such speed and confidence retorting, "It's not longer. It's more beautiful. Just take the pretty way." Rational mind had a good point, but I hadn't recognized that the first sense was a warning, non-rational, good information.

Entering the 2-lane parkway and it was dead stopped with traffic with no way to get off. I laughed a Muahahaha laugh and said thanks to my intuition for trying to save me time. It's not all that pretty at 0 miles per hour. LOL.

Fast forward to later in the day. Repeat of the same story, spare you details. Yup. Twice in one day! Yikers. First instinct, spot on. Whoops. (Same day, I did catch one vibe though that warned me quickly slow down, and sure enough I missed a speed trap.)

Suffice it to say, I wonder what else I'm missing. It's exciting to think about all the potential help there is! Intuition saves time....little things, big things. I'm quiet skilled at noticing the big things (you know, soul purpose, cancer and healing, people's strengths and how they hold back, things like that...), but I'm going to be more and more open to all the little things, too...and catch more in time. I know some people who are really good at intuiting the little things, but not so much the big things. I have an idea! What if I don't think of it as little/big!

My intention: In ALL ways I welcome my intuition to inform and save me time. I'm going to start asking regularly. So for example when I get in the car, 'I welcome guidance for a safe and an efficient trip.' I'm open to moment-to-moment guidance to save time and be of service. Speak loudly please while I get better at this part. Thanks! (Any ideas and suggestions welcome.)


you might also like:
- why the gas station now (embarrassingly similar story)

top 10 responses to "i'm a psychic"

So...what do you do for a living? A psychic, eh?

• Oh! Read me now!
• Oh no! You're not reading me now, are you!???
• You! hahahahaha! You! hahahahahahah! I've never met a psychic before. Sorry for laughing. hahahahaha! You don't look like a psychic! hahahaha!
  
• I think I'm intuitive, too. There was this time when.....and then.....and then.....and then...
• Oh. (insert conversation change here)
• I believe in that.
• So, like, so, how do you do that exactly?
• Tell me the lottery numbers or what good are you.
• Can I have your card?
  
• How fulfilling to teach others about intuition. There's nothing more important than trusting oneself.

Do you tell people you are psychic? Or intuitive? It's enjoyable.

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psychic detectives wanted for stolen car

So my car was stolen today. Really.
Some soul sisters gave me psychic info on what they think happened and it was interesting.

Anyone want to play psychic detective? Give it a go and simply share what you get on what happened/is happening/will happen. Could be interesting to put the clues together.

I'll share what I know about it in a few days and provide updates.

why people turn to psychics in this economy

(tips for not picking up negative energy)

CBS aired a snippet on one particular business seeing a boom in this uncertain economy....psychics.

Not surprising really. People have questions about their finances, career, job. People want guidance.

But there's another factor, I believe. An actual psychic factor.

Many people who engage in psychic readings are themselves highly sensitive and in tune to psychic energy. Many individuals are highly empathic. As such, many of my clients are actually picking up on the vibe around them; energy of worry, fear, anxiousness as neighbors lose jobs and homes and media broadcasts negative news.

It isn't just thoughts my clients are having, but sensations around them they are also experiencing. So there is a mix of looking for certainty in uncertain times and dealing with uncertainty around us.

For sure there are some psychics out there that prey on fear and even breed fear. Just like there are lawyers, priests, doctors, etc that are unethical. But for sure a good psychic can definitely help, by helping you stay in your own skin, focus on your own purpose and see insightfully into your own blind spots. A good psychic can also help those of you who are highly empathic to not pick up other people's negativity. Here are a few tips I've discovered.

Tips for not picking up other people's negative/uncertain energy:

1. Get grounded. If you are really connected to the earth and your own body, you are less in your head or energy around you. Walk. Dance. Yoga. Be barefoot. Rub your hands together.


2. Shake off. If you know you are empathic or pickup on other people's emotions easily, then assume you may be carrying other people's stuff. Assume it. Make it part of your daily routine, like brushing your teeth, to shake off other people's energy. Literally, shake it off. Or stomp your feet (great one for when kids get home from school, too).


3. Shout or sing it off. If you're bottling up other people's feelings, or your own, loud vocalization is fantastic for clearing. Give a big shout. Or 5 shouts. Say "HA!" Even pound your chest. You'll feel the release. One teacher I know says to do this and shout, "everybody else outta the pool." We are constantly exchanging energy with others. When we know it, we can deal with it.


4. Send off. Put your hand on your belly and say, "If this is not mine, leave. If it is someone else's, gently go back to them. If it is no longer needed, mulch back into the earth." This may sound a bit hokey, but try it. You'll be lighter. It is all intention.


5. Check in and feed. Intentionally focus on any negativity sense you are experiencing. Then notice what you feel in your own body. Feel where it is. Notice its temperature, texture, density. Ask it what it wants and needs. Then place your hand on your heart and provide an answer outloud. You can even ask if the negativity is yours and see what happens. Either way, you can send love to the negativity to help resolve it. See Feeding Your Demons for details.


6. Stay in your own skin. Don't get overly involved in someone else's emotional problems. You can help best when you are objective, neutral. You can be compassionate and still help. Or you can compassionately choose not to help.


7. Do what you love. Doing what you love puts you in heart space. When you are in your own heart and joy it is harder to pickup negativity.


8. Be creative. As a creative being, your mind needs to be creatively engaged. If it isn't, you just get all jumbled up in your head. Even organizing the closet is creative. It keeps you in your own space, too.


9. Work with a psychic. Get guidance on your questions. Get another view of your own blind spots. As you have clarity and get other perspectives on the energy going on, you can move forward more easily and release blocked energy. Often a good psychic will help you validate and refine your perceptions. This all clears negativity, too. I also offer energy work or will sometimes do a short energy tune-up at the beginning or end of a session just to help someone feel clear, more fully themselves.

My son says it is possible to notice whether you are sensing something on the right side of the body (yours) or left side of the body (someone else's). It works.
See: a 12 year old explains how to disconnect.

I wonder how others stay clear of negativity. Always open to new ideas.

the big "O" reading...when intuitive guidance delights

one of my funniest readings ever...when intuitive guidance surprises and delights...

My client looked at me like a deer in headlights. Nervous. What would I tell her?

I affirmed to myself my intention to be truthful, relevant, loving, serving her highest good...and how about some humor to make this easier for her!? Oh, did we get it!

What comes (excuse the pun) to me as guidance is "Orgasm".

Orgasm? What am I supposed to tell her about an orgasm? I wait for more guidance and nothing 'downloads.' So I start asking questions?

• Is there a conflict or concern about orgasms? No.
• Am I supposed to teach her about having orgasms? Odd, I suppose I did say I'm willing to be of service and teaching about having orgasms could sure spread happiness, but not what I had in mind. lol. No.
• Am I just horny and this message is for me and not her? Laugh. No.
• Breathe. More questions. Still nothing else.
• She's come to me for spiritual guidance and all I've got is orgasm. Can I do this work? I'm open to please have some specifics to help her!?! Breathe.
• Breathe. Same message. Orgasm. Nothing else.

Okay. I know how this works. The message is for her, not me. Just say it. See what happens. Sometimes a client understands when I don't. Sometimes the rest of the message flows through once I start speaking.

"Well. I see a (and as soon as I start talking, and trust the message and stop doubting myself, the rest flows like river) Oh. I see. I see you leaving a job that didn't give you an orgasm. You just couldn't get the big O there. You thought it was the perfect job for you, but it was never satisifying. My guidance shows your perception is correct. This job will not be satisifying. It is wise to leave this job."

The client cracks up! "Yes, I just resigned a couple days ago. I was feeling guilty about it, like there was something wrong with me because it was supposed to be the perfect job. But I was unhappy. Thanks for confirming my decision."

Deer in headlights gone and she's fully open now, too. Divine humor. Lovely.

The reading goes on full of specific guidance about her life's purpose and patterns, talents and how to work with them, a new business opportunity, choices about having children and other critical and highly specific topics.

Half way through the reading....and my guidance is that it's time for "hard wood".

All I can think about is the relationship to orgasm, ahem, and how 'hard wood' is good. Oh my. Do I need sex or something? What is up with this message? Is this about sex? Am I missing something? Breathe. Yep. Just say it, Meredith.

"Hun. Not sure what this means, but I see it is time for hard wood, " I share.

She chuckles and tells me she totally knows what that means. And again, once I let the guidance flow, more follows, "Oh. Me, too. I see you working with wood. Taking trees and shaping them into objects." She confirms.

"Yes, working with this wood is very good for you. In fact, it is your orgasm! Wink. Really. You can pour yourself into this. But I am getting the guidance that this is not for financial comfort, just the orgasm. Enjoy it. Keep the new business for prosperity."

Well, I learned to continue to ask for humor, along with the truth and service. I was reminded that intuitions often arrive like breadcrumbs: follow one and the next shows itself. And it is fun to be surprised and delighted in a reading. Just ask for it. Synchronicities and coincidences of humor and joy will find you.

Let intuition be a delight.

will timmy and eloise breakup?

Driving to school today, my son tells me about 'another irony.' "I told friends yesterday that Clayton and Ashley would break up real soon. And everybody said there was no way because they were doing so well (after all...they've been going out a long time...a whole month!). And guess what. They broke up yesterday."

"Hmmm. So you knew."

"YEH. I knew. I don't know how. But I knew. I always seem to get things like that," he continues.

That's how it works for me often, too. I just know. I know it as clear as I know my name. I just know. No logic. No reason. No evidence. But I know. It's called claircognizance (clear knowing) but whatever. It feels a lot like a thought, but it's not. If you pay attention, you will even begin to notice how that kind of 'knowing' is a different flavor.

He left the car by saying, "Well. Part of what I know is also that Timmy and Eloise will breakup within 2 weeks. We'll see."

As I drive off, I recall Chad "informing" me months back that I really ought to breakup with some guys quicker. Once you know, you know. Haha.

Point of interest: middle schoolers teach me how to breakup

UPDATE FROM CHAD. Yup. I called it. They broke up. No one else saw it coming and thought they had a really good relationship. But I called it.

get outta my head

I often sing a silly song to my dog to the tune of Spiderpig, ahem, I mean Spiderman.
"Kodiak, Kodiak, does whatever a Kodiak does. Looks so cute. What a hoot. Lookout, here comes the Kodiak".... and so on, bathroom humor removed

The other day I started singing it to the tune of Jesus Christ Superstar, without realizing it.
"Kodiak, Cute-iak, cuddly, happy, licky, love me, fur attack. Kodiak, maniac...and so on"

Then I hear..."WHY ARE YOU SINGING THAT!? THAT'S NOT THE SAME TUNE!"

"Uh, dunno," I smartly replied. "Was it different? I can make up whatever studid song to whatever stupid tune."

"NO WAY. I'VE BEEN HUMMING THAT....IN MY HEAD....NOT OUT LOUD. GET OUTTA MY HEAD, GOOF!"

haha. We laughed. I was tempted to tease with what else I know...but truth is, I had no idea I was doing it. Lately I've been playing a little day-to-day-be-psychic game. That's what I got. :)

Motto as of late: Love me, love me, ruff, ruff

as a kid i 'just knew it'

Doing a bunch of house cleaning/clearing and lightening the load. Came across a folder with old notes and cards.

Several times I saw comments I wrote to others, such as:

• "I just KNEW it"
• "I just KNEW it"
• "I don't know where I got these notecards. They were just in my desk. They just appeared. But aren't they cute!"
• "I just KNEW it"

Worth a giggle.

Still pitched the folder and a dozen other bags of old stuff I just don't need anymore. As sweet as the giggle was, it isn't worth the weight or space of that folder.

Motto as of late: Travel lightly

so, you admit you're psychic

There's this wide, wide step between knowing you have some psychic experiences and saying "I'm psychic."

But we are all psychic and have this natural sense. And psychic just means 'of the soul'...not fortune telling the next day's events. I talk to people repeatedly who've had dozens, hundreds, countless experiences with intuitions yet struggle to admit they are psychic. It's not a special power, folks. It's just our sixth sense readily available to us.

I say, you name it-you claim it.

I'd love to see some of you blog readers comment back on this post and somewhere in there say it...'I'm psychic.' Go ahead. You can do it. You will inspire others to do the same and it will significantly magnify the strength of your own psychic sense. Let's hear it....take a moment to comment.

And then check out how my son encouraged me to do it:
Mom, tell him what you really do

check's in the mail...really

I get this sudden insight that I'm going to get a check in the mail. Okay, I wonder. Why would I get a check in the mail? Is that wishful thinking or actually going to happen? Doesn't seem like a gift, nor from anyone I know.

I chuckle to myself and the Universe that I'll happily accept checks in the mail. Then I think to myself, why not write the amount myself! So I make up a ridiculous number of zeros. And it occurs to me, "No, how about 100 or 200 dollars, just enought to justify to myself a little purchase I wanted to make." That'll work.

Well, guess what. In my mailbox the next day was a check for $169. My mortgage company sent back escrow overage for the year. I've had mortgages for 20 years and in the past that amount has never been sent to me in a check but applied to the next year.

Fun. I didn't manifest it coming, I just tuned into it coming. Now to manifest with zeros.

are you getting anything?

Just a regular conversation with a friend or family member, hey, hello, howareya. At some point, it's not uncommon for me to hear, "Are you getting anything on that?"

Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I don't want to, and let people know I'm not objective in this case. And I'm completely comfortable telling others no. I'm happy to help, but sometimes I just want to be 'off' and be a friend and not feel as if I always have to have wise insight for someone. And sometimes I feel that the emergency beeper I've committed to with the Universe (beep me when you need me, I'm available) was accidentally publicized by me.

There are a few people who've I've given blanket permission to always ask, any time. And who have given me blanket permission to always suggest. Making it more comfortable for us, clear about boundaries, and because it gives us both opportunities to explore things in new ways (something I wouldn't do with a client, for example).

What I don't want right now is to always feel 'on' .... free to be on and off at will. I'm curious how this will develop over the years. Perhaps it's just still a transition going from 9-5 to 24/7. I know that even with 24/7, I need my me time and I'm still exploring the best ways to carve that space.

got "snagged" by son's intuition

Intense that one was. My psychic son knew what was happening (totally snagged me) in a 'delicate' situation and called me out on it very directly with a question. If I'm not straight with him, I risk shutting his intuition down...that's a no-no...if I'm straight with him, oh, man, there's going to be some explaining to do. Is he really ready to know the truth about this topic?

"Yup, you're right on. That is what's happening." I tell him.

If he's old enough to get it intuitively, he's old enough to talk about it. So we did. Like it or not.

intuitive bonus or threat?

If I get a vision, insight or whatever about something related to my own life and another person, is it lording over the other person with an unfair advantage!? Is it okay if I'm right about the insight? Is it not okay if I'm wrong about the insight?
(Surely when people have an 'idea' it isn't always right either, so why should an intuition "have to be" right?...And sometimes the insight is about something somewhat negative, but truth even when not so positive can be of great assistance....but I digress...)

So if I notice something 'unseen' or that hasn't happened yet, does that give me an unfair advantage?

How about a situation in a relationship or partnership where one person is far more intelligent than another....should the intelligent one stop being intelligent to make the field more 'fair'?

If someone has previous experience in a work situation, for example, should the person withhold it so as not to threaten a colleague?

I'd say not.

So long, of course, as the intelligent (intuitive, experienced, whatever) person isn't manipulating, taking advantage of, condescending to, or trying to hurt the other, then having the ability in the partnership is a bonus. Right?

Or do I need to make it more of a bonus, a gift. I know sometimes I hesitate, don't want to interfere, and sometimes only share intuitions in more concerning areas. Is this occasional issue my own confidence in communication, or is it others' lack of confidence and desire to not have something be seen, for whatever reason?

I think I'll explore ways for it be a benefit to those around me in a non-intrusive way...like a bonus or a gift. And explore alternative ways to communicate intuitions, like...."My vibes say..." "I wonder if this could work for us?" "Do you think it would be interesting if we tried this?" "I have the sense this may be happening, do you have any thoughts or clarification on that?" "Let's invest in this stock :) "

Or perhaps I'll play a sarcastic act as Emma the Omniscient just to swing it another way and see what happens. Oh, wait, I've done that...oops...annoying. Or maybe sometimes I'll just go with the ignorance is bliss. Oh wait, I've done that....oops....can you say 'blind sighted'?

I'll stick with Bonus.

LEARN, LEARN...MORE, MORE!

Get more! Do more! Have more! Know more! Be better! Fix! Fix! Fix!

Learn! Acquire! Succeed! Master!

Such a fast paced life. It's everywhere. The soccer team must win! The participants at the six sensory playgroup must succeed! I must be a better intuitive and get more, more, more for my clients. Figure out and be a master at so many things.

Whoaaaaaaa. In comes my son. Just being. A nice model. Happy to do well, happy to explore, happy to just be, happy to relax, happy to learn, happy to wonder, happy, happy, happy. He isn't struggling. He isn't busy. He isn't overwhelmed. He isn't trying to master everything. His drive is more about experiencing what he wants and not being pushed by others. Even when he's learning, he tends to be more relaxed and curious and wonderous.

He's enjoying his experiences, rather than trying to be the best at them. What a concept to adapt into wisdom.

perhaps his foot is broken?

Soccer mom. Gooooaaaaaallll!!!

At the game a boy complains that his foot hurts and doesn't know why. He played in the game anyway.

I mentioned to his mom, "I wonder if he may have a small break in his foot. Might be worth having a doctor check out. Who knows."

Sure enough....it was broken.

I've made an agreement that I'm willing to be of service where I can without prying. Otherwise, the antennae's are down. It's nice to throw in little tips like that in a gentle way though. Hope he heals up quick now.

um, I changed my question

I was doing a reading for someone, after having already done about 8 readings. I was doing the reading blind, which means the person thinks of the question without telling me. I love that. Keeps me super focused on the energy I am sensing since I have no pre-conceived notions at all about the topic.

So I started reading, I started to get a sense of some energy but it was very vague and didn’t quite understand it yet, when suddenly it just.... disappeared...... I tried to focus, but couldn’t get it back. I thought perhaps I’d lost my train of thought from doing so many readings or something and said to the person, “hmm…now where were we…I lost track.”

She started laughing and said, “Um. Sorry. I just changed my question.” We both cracked up. All in a days work. I love my job.

so, is it like fortune telling, or what?

Or what. I think each person has control over their choices and free will and I look for ways to empower that thinking. I suppose sometimes I do see the future and what will happen, but only when certain choices are already in motion and it will help the person to hold their vision, change their vision to match what they really want, or to help them prepare for how they will handle the experience.

“I don’t really get it.”

You make your own fortune. Sometimes when I work with someone, they reveal it to me through their heart when their mind is still blocking seeing it. I see it only when their heart wants the conscious mind to know.

“I still don’t get it.”

I help people get in touch with their own intuition.

“Great. I’ll do that.”

Okay.

so you’re dating a psychic, what’s that like

“She’s what? An intuitive? What’s that? You mean psychic?” The questions come at my boyfriend, and he notices it always draws quite a reaction…. “That’s awesome and I have to talk to her." "I totally think that’s amazing and I believe it.” Or “That must be annoying. Does she know when you’re going to….” He responds now, “It’s useless, really. She doesn’t really tell me anything that is going to happen. I hardly even know she’s psychic. I mean, there’s the occasional time she picks up the phone before it rings. And it’s annoying when she finishes my words before I say them (oops…still gotta work on that). But she just doesn’t tell me much."

Geez. It’s hardly as if I know everything. I really want to be surprised. I just want to know what I really need to know. And I am also just a regular girl. And it makes me mad when he says, “You’re psychic. You should know. What good is it.” He doesn’t say that anymore. Psychic doesn’t mean you know everything. Geez, I’m not omniscient. And I’m not going to go butting into all his business all the time because it’s his life to lead. He really wouldn’t like it if I did. I wonder if I ought to do that, for just a week, just for kicks. As if I could, anyway.
It’s nice knowing that sometimes when I think he’s been a total jerk, he’s actually just dealing with his own fears. And I can see underneath. And love that part. And love him. Of course, sometimes that is confusing. Do I deal with what’s underneath or what’s on top? Who do I talk to? I know I should talk to the real him. But the part on top is quite real, too, and ticking me off at the moment. Breathe. Love. Intimate relationships are the toughest for me. I’ve got so many years of doubting myself in that area and it’s taking a little longer than we’d both like for that to resolve itself. I sure love him.

Wouldn’t it be lovely if one day he says in response to what it’s like dating a psychic, “It’s interesting. Whenever I’m about to say something she doesn’t like and knows I’ll wish I could rescind, she just gives me a kiss and shuts me right up. Lots of kisses. Few fights.”

Hmm….perhaps that a little progress from finishing his words before he says them, but I know I’ve still got a ways to go.

mom, tell him what you really do

“So, Ms. Self, what do you do?” asks my 10 year old’s friend. My son looks at me. I say, “I’m an intuitive.” Blank. “I help people connect with their intuition, blah, blah, blah.”

“Moooommm,” my son corrects me, “tell him what you really do. That’s too many words.”

“I’m a psychic.”

“Cool! I didn’t know that. I totally believe in that.” His friend was curiously pleased.

My son smiled. “See. It’s not so hard.”

doesn’t everyone think like that? But how could I know she has breast cancer?

“I just know she has breast cancer. She’s in chemo. I know that’s why she hasn’t called in so long. How can I think such a thing. That’s horrible of me. I wonder. Just go ahead and invite her to happy hour. Don’t be silly.” I tortured myself a bit with my thoughts as I often did. Sure enough, the email came back weeks later. “I’m in chemotherapy. Discovered a lump in my breast.” I even knew which breast. Now that’s more than perceptive. That’s more than intuitive about people’s feelings. That’s more than knowing what my students need and what others motivations are. I can’t ignore that one.

“What’s going on with me?” I wondered. And my opening began. I’d always been perceptive and described myself as intuitive. Others described me as insightful, too, and would look to me for my read on things. I always seemed to notice things others didn’t, but at the same time I figured everyone thought like that. And now I know that everyone can, but not everyone does. I often knew things that were the opposite of the outward appearance and felt such guilt, really, for having the thoughts. I had no knowledge, interest or awareness of psychic, clairvoyant or clair-anything. No voices. No visions. No spirits. No premonitions. I just knew. I just know.

Now I realize, I was just seeing the truth. I just didn’t understand what I was seeing and doubted myself. How many walk around ignoring such impressions all the time. I was determined to understand how my mind and intuition were working. And that created an opening…like a great big magnet resources came to me and my intuition cracked opened like a hole in the sky, like the whole sky. Well, perhaps not quite so dramatic, but almost…certainly expansive. We walk around in our suburban world where so much is the same, yet everyone is so unique, yet we’re all one. And we can all think like that.

I’m so glad I stepped in. It’s prettier on this side. And when I know someone has breast cancer I don’t get all freaked out, I just send lots of love. And I doubt myself a lot less often.

just a girl from the burbs, who happens to be psychic

“You’re psychic? You? But you don’t look psychic.”

I’ve heard that more than once. “I left my scarf, hoop earrings and crystal ball at home,” I replied. “Just kidding. I’m just a girl from the burbs, and psychic just the same. Really, we’re all psychic. I just happen to use my sixth sense a lot. But thanks anyway. Have a great day.”