hawk peering down my spiritual ego noise

My spiritual ego was running a story around my head about how I oughta/shoulda this morning. (Yes. Our ego can even make up a spiritual story about itself...that isn't authentic.)

Some droning on about how certain things should be flowing.

I noticed. Calm not there. Peace of mind felt more like pieces of mind. Grasping at how I wish it were right now. Not light. Nope. Experience has shown me that this tension stops flow, stops presence, is all about the future or past and not this moment. That's not clear ego. That's not spirit consciousness.

Reality check, checked.

I'm thinking something that isn't true and attached to this thought. What thought am I holding? Then I decided....who cares!? All thoughts go ahead and release now. Reboot. Clear the pool, so to speak. Took a breath. Of course, thoughts came flooding back, as they do....but I watched them rather than hold them. Isn't that an interesting thought that 'x' should be happening right now. That's not actually true, but a distorted perception. Interesting. Hello. It actually may even be happening. Let that go.

Decided that this particular thing will happen as it happens. Drop time. I'm open to it. I'm connected to what's true.

Right then, a big hawk came and sat at the fence next to my office and looked right through the glass doors at me. Really peering. Like it wanted to come inside. They usually just come to the creek so I appreciated the big close hello. Hawk, to me, is vision, truth, seeing clearly. It peered at me like I was trying too hard. Yup.  It's happening. Got it. At least that's how I took in meaning from the experience. Gave a big heart felt thanks to the hawk, to my struggle, to rebooting, to spirit. Hawk then immediately flew away. Quick reboot.

Just a little suburban shamanism. Everything is inter-connected.

easy :: not so easy

Learning to get intuitions. EASY.

• Decide you want intuitive guidance.
• It will find you. Really.
• Notice what you notice and follow it.
• Really that simple.

Learning to live true to yourself always. NOT SO EASY.

• Intuitive guidance ultimately connects you to mind-body-spirit balance. Oh, balance.
• When you're conscious and you're following the guidance, it will lead you to what you need. Not always what you want.
• Reorganizing your life to fit the ways you are changing on the inside. Challenging.
• Reorganizing your mind. Whoa.
• Making your emotions more intelligent. Whoooaaaaa.
• Dark night of the soul period. Period.
• Simplifying your life. Not always so simple.

Motto as of late: There's a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.

got "snagged" by son's intuition

Intense that one was. My psychic son knew what was happening (totally snagged me) in a 'delicate' situation and called me out on it very directly with a question. If I'm not straight with him, I risk shutting his intuition down...that's a no-no...if I'm straight with him, oh, man, there's going to be some explaining to do. Is he really ready to know the truth about this topic?

"Yup, you're right on. That is what's happening." I tell him.

If he's old enough to get it intuitively, he's old enough to talk about it. So we did. Like it or not.