the jaguar tracked me to munay-ki

Oh how things align and cross and recross our path....as if tracking our way. I've been working with the animal archetypes of Munay-Ki for years without knowing it! Or, well, knowing it, but not knowing I knew it. You know? ;p

I received teachings on the Munay-Ki rites from Debra Grace recently. Munay-Ki means "I love you" or "Be as thou art" and are nine initiations, gateways, that heal and transform our energy field. This shamanic wisdom has been passed on for thousands of years and is coming out of South America now from the mountains of Peru. And not surprisingly to me, I'm very familiar with all the energy. (note: Tibet is also opening shaman practices to the west now).

I am tickled by little ways my own self seemed to line up for this and be doing this shamanic work already. One of the first times I did energy work for someone was a soul retrieval. I didn't know how, but spirit did it. I've been shown many shamanic (and modern) techniques by spirit and visions and then come to learn about them later. I see this happen to clients also and it's so ticklish....a client today spoke of a vision a few years ago that matched the heart meditation I taught her. Lovely. We tend to think we need to get the wisdom from someone else. That's why I love intuition. It means 'inner teacher.' The wisdom is available to me, now. It's not out there, it's in here. And that's why I love shamanism. It's embodying spirit.

In the Munay-Ki rites, the ancient ones talk about the chakras using archetypes. In the lower four chakras the symbols of Serpent, Jaguar, Hummingbird and Eagle help you identify with the meanings of the energy. So here's one thing that tickled me at the workshop. I've been drawn to these particular animals over the years. How interesting, given all the animals out there.

Serpent.
I owned a snake. Used to walk around with it around my neck (bet most of you didn't know that). Loved to watch it feed and shed. Love...well, perhaps fascinated with the metaphor of shedding skin, and the 'impersonalness' of this creature. The Serpent is non-emotional, earth energy.

Jaguar.
I've been working with a jaguar in journeying for 8 years now. And just before the workshop had a very interesting integrative experience where jaguar ate my face (seriously. was very interesting and amusing) and then merged into me. Was so beautiful. I even have a mayan jaguar mask I got in guatemala a decade ago. To me jaguar is all about impeccable integrity. Walking my talk and knowing how to walk. Jaguar is emotional, water energy.

Hummingbird.
First bird of fascination for me. Had a hummingbird feeder for years and have given them as gifts and hung glass ones. The flight is magical and nectar sweet. Doing the impossible. Joy. The courage to fly in ways and places that just shouldn't be possible. I often think of the heart as wings. Hummingbird is Fire energy.

Eagle.
For years I've been seeing messages from hawks. They are a symbol of spirit and messages from spirit to me. They represent clear and laser like vision and intention to me. I see them all the time and am always pointing them out. Friends often wonder how I see them hidden in trees and so still. One even sat on my fence, quite rare. Hawk isn't eagle, I know, but here where I live it makes sense. Very similar. Eagle is the air energy, vision, wisdom.

How amazing to me that I'd be drawn to these animals, and drawn to this practice starting years ago. (I am also very drawn to dragonflies. Story for later.) We have an inner knowing drawing us towards things and over time the hidden meanings reveal more and more. Are you drawn to animals? What animals are you drawn to and what wisdom does that convey? (note: when I see animals in the wild or in visions, I pay attention to their behavior...sitting, busy, what are they doing...look in their eyes...learn from them). I'd be happy to share my sense of the animals for you if you're curious, just comment to this post.

Suburban Shaman and Munay-Ki Rites here in North America
I am drawn to the way of the shaman. My visions take me there. But I'm a suburban shaman for sure. I have my own shamanic voice. Shamanism is largely about embodying spirit. It's not out there. It's in here. Within me. Connect with the power within. This wisdom is meant to come to the west now. And we are not meant to copy it in its exact form, but embody it now within us. Suburban Shaman.

I'm looking forward to sharing the beautiful, empowering Munay-Ki rites in a workshop soon. Other rites have to do with activating the hands to sense energy, activiating the third eye for intuitive knowing, bands of power and protection, connecting with luminous ones, healing the masculine and feminine and transforming our consciousness to god-consciousness. It's so beautiful. The workshop will focus on finding your shamanic voice.

singing hey jealousy before it plays on the radio

Driving with my son. He starts singing an old song, 'Hey Jealousy.' Seemingly randomly.

A few minutes later, the song 'Hey Jealousy' plays on the radio. Chad remarks, "I was just singing that!" He looks at me with his jaw dropped open. He doesn't think it is a coincidence.

"Yup. Interesting how that happens, eh. When we have a synchronicity like that, it is just a way for our intuition to get our attention. Something about that song has meaning for you. And, hello, you are soooo psychic. Why are you surprised!?! Giggle."

We had been talking the last few days about a challenge with another person. And I think jealousy makes perfect sense. I think the insight is helping him see how the other person is hurting. Hopefully the next precognitive song suggests actions.

Songs can be a great way for intuition to get our attention. Ask for intuitive guidance, be open to it through song. I bet it's happened for a lot of you, too?? What songs or situations?

a connected cow & me & you

In celebration of this 100th post, I'd like to share a story of interconnectedness & gratitude for sharing this space with you....

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At dinner last night, as Chad and I delighted in a scrumptious meal, we were acknowledging all those who made it possible. And in moments such as these, our sense of interdependence, rather than independence or dependence, is clear.

cow farmer, butcher, vet, rice farmer, soybean farmer, shallot farmer, dijon mustard farmers, wine makers and workers, orange farmers, garlic farmers, olive oil farmers-makers- and bottlers, baker, flour maker, factory line workers, engineers-builders-runners of the machines that process and package the raw food, marketer who prepares packaging, cargo loaders, truckers, civil engineers who designed roads, those who built the roads, those who created the machines that built the roads, those who built the machines that helped build the roads, stock clerks, creators and builders of grocery checkout machines, bagger, architect/superintendent/carpenters/electricians/plumbers/painters/and others who make the grocery store where we can easily access our food, accountants and operations staff, human resources support, managers...

....and this list continued for several more minutes to include even those who made the plates and glasses from which we ate...and then we thanked the exquisite man who prepared the yummy steak ahead of time for us (to which Chad said it is RIDICULOUS how good it is), and Chad thanked me for preparing it (and telling me it is one of the best meals he ever had...thank goodness since last night's was the worst, no offense, tee hee)...

....and each of their mothers and fathers who made their lives possible, and their mothers, and their fathers....

We soften, as we recognize our connection to each other.

Thank you for sharing this space with me, for touching me with your emails, comments, lives. Thank you for passing this love on to all those you touch.

it's just not ripe yet

I noticed a few people a bit mixed up by something they saw intuitively that is coming but not here yet. They didn't realize what they were sensing isn't quite ripe. Want to know how I tell the difference?

I noticed three people had each tuned into something that is coming. In one case, someone tuned into changing jobs and was excited (and couldn't wait). Another tuned into a death coming. Another noticed a possible long-term challenge with a boyfriend. However, they were feeling unsettled with these insights, wanting to act and not feeling ready or sure. In each case, I could tell the energy was true, but the idea wasn't quite RIPE yet and they were thinking it was ripe and acting as if they had to deal with eating the fruit today (rather than working with the seed until it is ripe). It wasn't that they weren't ready or weren't courageous...they were each ready to follow their intuitions...but it simply wasn't time yet.

While the intuition may be true, the intuition was showing something still in seed form, an early form of the energy that needs to be watered, lived, experienced as is, as a seed...not acted on as if it is currently in full bloom. Right now, prepare.

For example, the one who can feel the new job and a shift coming, doesn't mean she has to quit today. Now she can get things in order to make the new job a-go. When the time is ripe to quit, it will be even clearer. That's why she felt confused about quitting, now...the seed is there, she can feel it...but it isn't ripe yet. So what great intuition...act now to prepare for the harvest/change/new job.

So for clarity, when you get an intuitive 'hit' on something, ask yourself...
What stage is this energy in?
Is this ripe? Is it time to act/eat/enjoy/experience now?
Or is it time to nourish this energy? What guidance is there FOR NOW with this insight?

Hints to notice ripeness/readiness/presence & timing of energy:
Everything is energy and has a vibration. I read energy. That's what I do. So check the vibe. Symbolically feel the energy. Energy that is ripe to me feels (or looks/sounds/is) bigger, bolder, steadier, closer, more solid, more present, more dense and touchable, juicier, tender, ready! Energy that is not ripe feels further away, more mushy, hazier, smaller, more ethereal...not here yet... Practically, ask your intuition to notice the ripeness of the intuition...try it on, feel it.

Also, I often see it to the right of me or in front of me (like down a timeline) when it is coming, and to the left of me or behind me if it already happened.

Additionally, when I get an intuitive hit, I also always tune into what the guidance is FOR NOW. What actions (internally or externally) make sense for me now, given this insight. That also can help understand the timing of the intuition.

Organizing intuition
Analogies and symbolic thinking like this help me organize and get detail to make more meaning and practical application of intuitions. It focuses me on the present moment. Intuitive predictions can be helpful, or not, depending on how you use and interpret the energy. Your intuition guides you to choices to make for now, to be present fully, to live freely, now. One of the biggest obstacles I see to people using intuition is not finding a way to organize it or not intentionally asking for specifics. Stretch the muscle...organize. Even something as breadcrumb and 'flash-like' as intuition can be organized.

What types of organization do you use or have questions about?

extreme sheepherding...making life a creative playground

Here's to making life a creative playground. Baaahhhh.....

guest post: a non-BSG but still savored moment

This guest post brought to you by SuperMel. Few can twist a word or story to truth with humor like she can.

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Thanks to Meredith for inviting me to write a guest post on anything I wanted except for Battlestar Galactica. So here's a story about friends and intuition.

Some of the best moments happen when I listen to the inner voice that quietly nudges me in the right direction. Doesn't have to be anything major, just moments I savor even years later.

My friend Mary and I were tight. Partners in crime, Thelma and Louise, you get the picture. Mary lived in the city and I lived in suburbia, which made it difficult to get together and wreak havoc. One day, unbeknownst to Mary, I happened to be headed downtown for a meeting.

Suddenly I thought, "Hmm, I should stop by Mary's beforehand." So I got off the Metro and took the back way towards her place. Suddenly, I see Mary running down the sidewalk towards me, saying, "SuperMel!SuperMel!" and waving a City Paper in her hand. She had seen her ex-boyfriend's personal ad in the City Paper and was Having A Moment.

Something told her to take a walk towards Woodley Park.

I love that moment. What's yours?

since i met you i notice my own intuition in new ways

I've been working with a chiropractor the past six months and just adore her. She's helping me open up my whole spine, neck and chest. Today, she said, "Meredith, ever since I met you I've been really paying attention to my intuition. And you know, I'm really noticing so much more. I'm very intuitive. It's just so true that whatever we focus on we can develop."

She already knew she was intuitive. Now she's using it even more intentionally. A lot of people who I meet tell me later that they are much more intuitive now and trust themselves more. I seem to hold space for that. :) I simply share and love seeing the light on inside so I notice it in others.

It all comes down to intention and attention. Simply pay attention to it. Notice it. Ask questions.

"I intend to allow my intuition to guide me for my highest good in all areas of my life. I'm open to only the highly guidance for all concerned. I welcome it. I notice it."

• How can I be more intuitive?
• What stops my intuition?
  
• How does my intuition work?
• Where does intuition come from?
• What does my intuition suggest about ___________(specific topic or area of your life)?

Sometimes people simply don't think to ask these questions. I ask them all the time and that's why my tuning keeps refining. I pay attention. So can you.

What questions/intentions have you/will you use to strengthen your intuition?

psychic detectives wanted for stolen car

So my car was stolen today. Really.
Some soul sisters gave me psychic info on what they think happened and it was interesting.

Anyone want to play psychic detective? Give it a go and simply share what you get on what happened/is happening/will happen. Could be interesting to put the clues together.

I'll share what I know about it in a few days and provide updates.

i just bought that book, funny you mention it!

A client called for a reading. My guidance said to do an exercise with her instead. Took her on a journey where she met different aspects of herself around a campfire council: The Pusher and The Magical Timeless Knower. Got these parts of her psyche working together and supporting each other.

It was lovely how the journey came together and how I believe it helped answer her questions.

Wrapping up, I left her with a resource that would support her continuing this on her own and welcomed her followup if she got stuck with any shadow parts or wanted to do some healing around any parts where she feels resistance. I tuned into which book on this topic would be best for her and suggested she read, Dark Side of the Light Chasers, by Debbie Ford. It's a good basic and practical book on shadow work, an integral aspect of conscious expansion.

She laughs hard. "I just bought that book! I haven't read it yet." I hear her relax into trusting herself. Ahhh.

Isn't it perfect timing how tuned in she is to what she needs!? Gave her confidence that she knows what to do, and now confidence that she can do it since she experienced it already with me. I look forward to hearing what she discovers. She has such a beautiful, compassionate and strong spirit....I wish she believed in herself as much I believe in her. I'm keeping the fire lit for her.

I've had several experiences where I had intuitive insight for something in my own life then found a book that confirmed it. There is something about having it in writing that makes it feel more real and validated. I imagine similar things have happened for you, too...whether it is books or other concrete validations. Don't they help!?

ha! i think i was on your website last night!

Introductions and 'what do you do' questions at a recent gathering. "I'm a psychic. I teach people to access intuition."

"That's interesting, " one guy says. I was just on a website last night of someone who is psychic. Not something I've done before. What is your name?"

After I told him my name, and he realized that it was actually me, there was a giggle by the group ...what are the odds of that...I'd never been to this group before, and he just so happened to randomly come across my website the night before.

Now that is someone in tune! I think the attention was more on me, but really, it was this guy who tuned into it. I didn't predict seeing him, he basically predicted seeing me even if he didn't realize he was doing it.

You see. I'm open. I'm available. I'm here. My light is on. And well, he is in tune. So our energy attracts. We were meant to connect. And connecting has been meaningful for both of us. Interesting topics came up that were relevant to things we are both learning/experiencing.

Synchronicities like that are somewhat common for me. It's fun. It's sport! Intend to tune in. Intend to notice synchronicities. Intend to be surprised. Intend to find resources, people and joy.

i just want to be on today

Today, I wish all my intuitions were flowing wildly and freely and mystically and surprisingly and making everything cleeeeaaaarrrrr. Wait for it.....

...nothing, nada, not happening.

No insights. No guidance. No sense of much at all.

Even my body just wants to rest and be off. I'm churning for more in my mind. I have all these ideas I feel like working on. But my body overrides everything and says just rest. Okay, no resistance. Down tiger. Just rest.

Can you hear the theme song...'you can't always get what you want, you can't always get what you want...but you get what you neeeeeed!'

see: i just want to be off today

tuning into groups when leading/consulting

Led a workshop this weekend. I am much more goal oriented and let the how of the meeting/workshop flow into place intuitively. I am amazed how much easier & more effective this is because my intuition knows so much more than my rational mind!

Recommendations to use intuition in groups:

• Tune into the energy of the group.
  Before the meeting, notice what you notice about any sensations or impressions. ex: heavy/light, chaotic/calm/exhausted, bright/dull, warm/cold, cohesive/disjointed, welcoming/resistant, flowing/blocked, charged/drained, dense/loose, etc...
• Tune into the area of focus & what needs attention.
  ex: relaxing, empowering, being authentic, being willing, being a beginner, being a learner, being okay with being unsure, being a master, taking risks, working together, acknowledgement, honesty, creativity, understanding, etc...)
• Tune into where the energy wants to flow for the highest good or to unblock.
  After you notice what is so, notice how the energy wants to move if it were moving most freely. ex: wants to relax so it can be more discerning, wants to come together, wants to focus on a particular person or idea, wants to move up, wants to charge, wants to stand firm, wants to move slowly/quickly, etc.)
• Tune into the next steps.
  The next step may be different than what you expect. For example, before a group can be creative, they might need to be acknowledged, work independently or something else first.
• Tune yourself, your core, to model the highest energy of the change.
  Embody it. So you can model it. If the group needs relaxation, tune yourself to be calmer. If the group needs empowerment, tune yourself to the type of empowerment needed.
• Plan accordingly and along with goals.
  Now engage your reason and discernment, combing this intuitive sense with the wisdom you have about the topic and people, to make a plan. (If the energy wanted to move slowly but you wanted a result now, this intuitive data will help).
• Show up and stay in tune with goal and how the energy is changing.
  Using your intuition, you are in the moment, not just a thought or plan. Be willing to receive impressions and guidance for group in the moment...and follow it. Be in tune with the needs of group, not just your own leadership, desires or fears. I usually intend to the follow the plan and keep a pulse on what is happening, getting 'beeped' with any changes.

When you start by noticing what is so (rather than charge towards change or the goal), you acknowledge and witness the truth of the group. This helps the group relax any tension, for example, convincing you what they are experiencing, which frees energy to be spent more effectively moving towards the goal.

Many effective leaders do this naturally, but we can all strengthen it. As a participant in a group, you can also tune into this group dynamic and vibe and help with the shift.

Example:
Leading a workshop about intuition where the focus of the first day is the intuitive way and how intuition works.

As I tuned to energy of group, the energy was push, strive, grow, stretch, reach...I'm not there.
I noticed that the energy wanted to free up to be more comfortable in the stretch. Not resisting. Relaxing ino the unknown. Accepting that stretching is okay and get comfortable with it. Accepting they are human, and divine and being more authentic about being both and not perfect. It is a highly experienced group that needs to know more about how intuition works at advanced levels.

We started by talking about the balance between human and divine, being spirit embodied, being authentically both not perfect. I tuned into us acting it out physically. We did an exercise with our body; yoga mats representing us and the floor representing the universe around us, then moving to show how we interact and flow between human/divine, us/universe. We used our intuition to help each other refine this interaction so we can move more freely now.

We ended up practicing more than what I had 'planned' and went deeper into how to live with intuition....all because I tuned into the energy of the group along with the goals.

The energy focus Level 2 is about pace, timing. Looking forward to it!

i just want to be off today

Today was one of those days where I don't feel like being psychic.
Just turn the psychic switch off!! Do you ever feel like that?

Not a bad day, really, but I just really don't feel like being psychic. I had wonderful client experiences that I wouldn't trade for anything. And at the same time, I don't want to be psychic today.

• I don't want to tune into anything or notice anything.
• I don't want to question why.
• I don't want to wonder anything.
• I don't want to know why.
• I don't want to know anything.
• I don't want to know anyone's motivations or lessons.
• I don't want to tune into a new location for teaching (help!?).
• I don't want to be in tune with new classes or articles or anything.
• Idon't want to get liability insurance because I need it to rent spaces?!??!!
• I don't want to solve anything.

I just want everything simple and easy today.

I just want to play, be loved, enjoy, be OFF.

I knew I needed this in the morning, but I pushed through things I needed to get done anyway. Not highly productive either. Duh. Oops. I needed a down day. I did at least take a nap. Now I'm going to watch a movie.

And for those of you paying close attention, you'll notice that here I am still writing about it! Geez. Off girl!!!

Don't you ever feel like wanting no intuitions?!

is this my emotion or yours?

What is mine and what is yours! I get so connected and tuned in with an intimate partner that I can mix up our emotions. Happen to you, too?

That's not a good thing.

It's better to perceive/observe the emotion. With clients and friends, no problem. But once I become intimate with someone, I keep blurring it. Blur, tangle, blur. I think I'm feeling heavy but the other person is, not me. Blurry.

The good thing is, I'm catching it quicker when it happens and can sort through it faster.

incredibly astute whose-emotion method that will shock & awe you....

"Is this mine?" Seriously. I ask myself that.
(When things are challenging, go to what is simple. Simple truths always work.)
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YES
Yes is a more expansive, open, light, forward-moving vibe.
If yes:
I simply contemplate the emotion and originating thought and work with it.
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NO
No is a more retracted, closed, dense, downward or backward moving vibe.
If no:
1. acknowledge. In my mind, "got it. okay. thanks, hon, this is yours."
2. let go. I express gratitude for knowing intimately the feeling then separate from it and let go of it. I want the knowledge, not the on-going experience. I usually then send love.
3. choose a response. Given knowledge of this particular emotion, and the fact that I personally feel it so intensely, I then choose what to do with it. When I feel anything really strongly, then I have an attachment to it. Sometimes I do the practice of Chod with it.
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MIXED
If mixed: I do both. :)

Note: my son also suggests feeling the side of the body (left if it is other, right if it is mine). This also works for me.

minimizing tangling in the first place

• Space helps: I need personal space and meditative time, especially when in frequent intense emotion. Keeps me clear.
• Movement helps: walking, dancing.
• Singing helps: opens my heart and expression.
• Intention helps: I know this tangling happens to me, so my intent is to be 1) clear about what is mine and more importantly 2) notice and not absorb.

happy untangling....

having a genius rather than being a genius....elizabeth gilbert's video on creativity

Elizabeth Gilbert, author of internationally best selling book Eat, Pray, Love, speaks on challenges within the creative process and how we put enormous pressure on ourselves to be genius. With rawness and humor, she describes how thinking about the process as connecting with a universal creative source, then all the pressure doesn't have to be on you.

It is a funny and inspiring talk. Check out her stories and try her suggestion....

another mistake please

I've learned so much from my mistakes. I think I'll go make another!

My intuition has grown directly in proportion in my willingness to mess up. Life is creative, messy, playful. Intuition is connecting with something previously unknown so it has elements of uncertainty. There will be mistakes. There will be misunderstandings. And isn't this true even in direct analysis?

Embrace mistakes! Goof around! Laugh at yourself. The lighter you are with it, the more intuition flows. Embrace your courageous heart.

Special thanks to the Edge for sharing this phrase and way of being. You know, some people make making mistakes easier.

i don't really want to shuffle

About 4 years ago I brought a guy I was seeing to meet my son who was 10 at the time. We decided to play cards. After a hand, my son Chad gave me the cards to let me shuffle.

"You want to learn to shuffle?" my friend asks Chad.

"No, thanks," Chad responds politely.

"Seriously. It's not hard. I can teach you."

"No thanks." Chad replies again.

"Oh! But shuffling is great! It's a great feeling and you have control of the game and you don't have to wait for anyone to shuffle for you. It's easy. I can teach it to you in 2 minutes."

"No. I really don't care. I don't want to shuffle. I just want to play cards."

More requests that turn to prodding, until Chad finally says lets play cards and my friend stops.

All the while, I'm observing the interaction, noticing the clear intent of my friend to help, yet also seeing he was pushing and not accepting Chad's answer. I wondered, does he think Chad is weak for not trying? Why is he pushing so hard? I didn't intervene as Chad clearly was able to take care of this himself.

But I also noticed that if this particular person had done that to me, I would have been "back off! are you criticizing me? why do you care? why aren't you listening to what I want?" While those comments have some truth, Chad's way was is so much purer.

Later that evening, my friend's remark surprised me. "I wish I were like him. I'm so impressed. He's so sure of himself and what he wants. And was completely clear about it."

The clearer and truer we are in our self, the less we are swayed by pressure out of insecurity or to please another and so we don't act defensively or reactively. Yet another way I am grateful to learn from Chad when he simply says, "no thanks."

coin flip for guidance

Client: "Should I leave VA and move to LA? My boyfriend is there."

Answer: got nothing. big nothing. no hints. no tips. no nothing.

My wording of her question: "What guidance, for her highest good, is there about her moving to LA? What will help her make the decision about moving?"

Answer. I see a matrix and ask if she has a comprehensive list of pros and cons around this decision. She confirms. I mention the criteria don't weigh evenly making for tough analysis. Though a worthwhile effort, it isn't really working, eh. This decision is meant for the heart, not the head.

My question to client: "What does your heart want?"

Client: "I have no idea! It's all jumbled up!"

My question for intuitive guidance: "How can I assist?"

Answer. Coin.

My internal response. Excuse me? She's come for spiritual guidance and I ought to suggest she flip a coin? Breathe. Coin again. Breathe. Yup. Coin. Okay. Here goes.

My guidance to client. "As you have discovered, there are many opportunities and concerns with both choices. There are no guarantees. You've considered the alternatives if the relationship doesn't work out. Really, what you need is simply a decision.... Let's flip a coin and be done with it. Heads you go. Tails you stay. FLIP.

Client: She jumps out of her seat and screeeaaaammmmssss..."HEADS!! HEADS!!!! Well...is it heads!!??? Is it??"

The realization. I look at her dearly, deeply, with a mischievous grin. "Does it matter? I think we both know what you want now."

Her eyes widen. Tears of relief flow. And out comes her desire. "Yes. I sooo soooo soooo want to go. I guess I'm just scared of what will happen." We hug. That was interesting.

But there's more. Then...all of sudden I sense more guidance about to come. I reach for a card. Flip the card. The title on the card is, "Go For It!" We both crack up. Then 10 minutes of details come about the relationship, the move, the timing and how she can best realize her potential in this situation.

My intention is to empower. I could have seen the move earlier and just told her to move. But she wouldn't have been fulfilled by having some psychic tell her to go. She needed to make the decision on her own. I am simply a facilitator for her spirit to move freely. I won't see beyond what is best for anyone. How lovely.

You know when it is time to know. I get messages when they are relevant. Not sooner. Even if I want them! I must trust what I get when I get it. Share it. That's it. If there's more we want to know, it'll come when it is appropriate, intuitively or otherwise.

She moved. They married. Living happily for years now.

Oh. And we never did look at what side the coin landed on.

check out shift your focus-- the power of questions

I invite you to take a look at:
Shift your Focus: The Power of Questions
from Anthony Robbins.

Your questions, what you focus on, shape what you experience. So to change state and experiences, change your questions.

soul esteem

I was talking with someone who was so excited about making a rare and precious soul connection. So excited, in fact, that the person was strikingly unkind to another friend, me.

It hurt.

Soon after, it reminded me of how grateful I am that I have so many soul connections with others. Deep, meaningful, connected. I feel witnessed, understood, stimulated, at ease, expansive. I experience it all the time. I can count on there being many others. It is precious.

Connecting from the heart is different than connecting with the mind. When both combine, it is even better. I don't need to force anything to have these experiences. I don't have to seize them or lose them. I don't have to manipulate the connection. I don't have to cling to it. I don't have to hurt anyone to have them. I trust they are there, everywhere. I live for them, look for them, welcome them, and experience them with ease with wide variety of people. How fulfilling and fortunate!

I'm grateful.

Makes it easy to forgive the hurtful way I was treated. Makes it clear, however, that this individual's challenges with open heartedness requires me to approach the relationship and interactions in a totally different way. And so I'm grateful for the clarity.

a surprise twist in an ugly experience.

With love, I send out a great big hug welcoming all the connections to come.

peek at my parenting cards

Want a sneak peek of the parenting oracle & activity cards? Check them out.

It's a 44 card set to raise kids to live intuitively & true to their spirit. It's full of activities balanced across the four elements, body-mind-heart-spirit. They go to print in next few months.

Let me know what you think!

oh, dream about me

My clients tell me dreams they have about me. How fun! Yet another way I get to be delighted, inspired and 'messaged' by all the in-tune people I meet. I am open to your wonderfulness.

A few dreams from others that I've heard lately:

• "you have your own tv show and it is great!"
• "you are on oprah and she loves your parenting cards!"
• "you are on oprah"
• "you are on oprah" (uh, there's a pattern here...I'm willing!)
• "you are going to california" (I was there)

I welcome your dreams and other guidance. We are in this together.

How to intuitively dream:
Simple. Ask your intuition to give you answers while you dream. :) 
It's intention. Practice topics for others. Practice on me. Practice on yourself.

you are dreamy! have fun!

why people turn to psychics in this economy

(tips for not picking up negative energy)

CBS aired a snippet on one particular business seeing a boom in this uncertain economy....psychics.

Not surprising really. People have questions about their finances, career, job. People want guidance.

But there's another factor, I believe. An actual psychic factor.

Many people who engage in psychic readings are themselves highly sensitive and in tune to psychic energy. Many individuals are highly empathic. As such, many of my clients are actually picking up on the vibe around them; energy of worry, fear, anxiousness as neighbors lose jobs and homes and media broadcasts negative news.

It isn't just thoughts my clients are having, but sensations around them they are also experiencing. So there is a mix of looking for certainty in uncertain times and dealing with uncertainty around us.

For sure there are some psychics out there that prey on fear and even breed fear. Just like there are lawyers, priests, doctors, etc that are unethical. But for sure a good psychic can definitely help, by helping you stay in your own skin, focus on your own purpose and see insightfully into your own blind spots. A good psychic can also help those of you who are highly empathic to not pick up other people's negativity. Here are a few tips I've discovered.

Tips for not picking up other people's negative/uncertain energy:

1. Get grounded. If you are really connected to the earth and your own body, you are less in your head or energy around you. Walk. Dance. Yoga. Be barefoot. Rub your hands together.


2. Shake off. If you know you are empathic or pickup on other people's emotions easily, then assume you may be carrying other people's stuff. Assume it. Make it part of your daily routine, like brushing your teeth, to shake off other people's energy. Literally, shake it off. Or stomp your feet (great one for when kids get home from school, too).


3. Shout or sing it off. If you're bottling up other people's feelings, or your own, loud vocalization is fantastic for clearing. Give a big shout. Or 5 shouts. Say "HA!" Even pound your chest. You'll feel the release. One teacher I know says to do this and shout, "everybody else outta the pool." We are constantly exchanging energy with others. When we know it, we can deal with it.


4. Send off. Put your hand on your belly and say, "If this is not mine, leave. If it is someone else's, gently go back to them. If it is no longer needed, mulch back into the earth." This may sound a bit hokey, but try it. You'll be lighter. It is all intention.


5. Check in and feed. Intentionally focus on any negativity sense you are experiencing. Then notice what you feel in your own body. Feel where it is. Notice its temperature, texture, density. Ask it what it wants and needs. Then place your hand on your heart and provide an answer outloud. You can even ask if the negativity is yours and see what happens. Either way, you can send love to the negativity to help resolve it. See Feeding Your Demons for details.


6. Stay in your own skin. Don't get overly involved in someone else's emotional problems. You can help best when you are objective, neutral. You can be compassionate and still help. Or you can compassionately choose not to help.


7. Do what you love. Doing what you love puts you in heart space. When you are in your own heart and joy it is harder to pickup negativity.


8. Be creative. As a creative being, your mind needs to be creatively engaged. If it isn't, you just get all jumbled up in your head. Even organizing the closet is creative. It keeps you in your own space, too.


9. Work with a psychic. Get guidance on your questions. Get another view of your own blind spots. As you have clarity and get other perspectives on the energy going on, you can move forward more easily and release blocked energy. Often a good psychic will help you validate and refine your perceptions. This all clears negativity, too. I also offer energy work or will sometimes do a short energy tune-up at the beginning or end of a session just to help someone feel clear, more fully themselves.

My son says it is possible to notice whether you are sensing something on the right side of the body (yours) or left side of the body (someone else's). It works.
See: a 12 year old explains how to disconnect.

I wonder how others stay clear of negativity. Always open to new ideas.

the big "O" reading...when intuitive guidance delights

one of my funniest readings ever...when intuitive guidance surprises and delights...

My client looked at me like a deer in headlights. Nervous. What would I tell her?

I affirmed to myself my intention to be truthful, relevant, loving, serving her highest good...and how about some humor to make this easier for her!? Oh, did we get it!

What comes (excuse the pun) to me as guidance is "Orgasm".

Orgasm? What am I supposed to tell her about an orgasm? I wait for more guidance and nothing 'downloads.' So I start asking questions?

• Is there a conflict or concern about orgasms? No.
• Am I supposed to teach her about having orgasms? Odd, I suppose I did say I'm willing to be of service and teaching about having orgasms could sure spread happiness, but not what I had in mind. lol. No.
• Am I just horny and this message is for me and not her? Laugh. No.
• Breathe. More questions. Still nothing else.
• She's come to me for spiritual guidance and all I've got is orgasm. Can I do this work? I'm open to please have some specifics to help her!?! Breathe.
• Breathe. Same message. Orgasm. Nothing else.

Okay. I know how this works. The message is for her, not me. Just say it. See what happens. Sometimes a client understands when I don't. Sometimes the rest of the message flows through once I start speaking.

"Well. I see a (and as soon as I start talking, and trust the message and stop doubting myself, the rest flows like river) Oh. I see. I see you leaving a job that didn't give you an orgasm. You just couldn't get the big O there. You thought it was the perfect job for you, but it was never satisifying. My guidance shows your perception is correct. This job will not be satisifying. It is wise to leave this job."

The client cracks up! "Yes, I just resigned a couple days ago. I was feeling guilty about it, like there was something wrong with me because it was supposed to be the perfect job. But I was unhappy. Thanks for confirming my decision."

Deer in headlights gone and she's fully open now, too. Divine humor. Lovely.

The reading goes on full of specific guidance about her life's purpose and patterns, talents and how to work with them, a new business opportunity, choices about having children and other critical and highly specific topics.

Half way through the reading....and my guidance is that it's time for "hard wood".

All I can think about is the relationship to orgasm, ahem, and how 'hard wood' is good. Oh my. Do I need sex or something? What is up with this message? Is this about sex? Am I missing something? Breathe. Yep. Just say it, Meredith.

"Hun. Not sure what this means, but I see it is time for hard wood, " I share.

She chuckles and tells me she totally knows what that means. And again, once I let the guidance flow, more follows, "Oh. Me, too. I see you working with wood. Taking trees and shaping them into objects." She confirms.

"Yes, working with this wood is very good for you. In fact, it is your orgasm! Wink. Really. You can pour yourself into this. But I am getting the guidance that this is not for financial comfort, just the orgasm. Enjoy it. Keep the new business for prosperity."

Well, I learned to continue to ask for humor, along with the truth and service. I was reminded that intuitions often arrive like breadcrumbs: follow one and the next shows itself. And it is fun to be surprised and delighted in a reading. Just ask for it. Synchronicities and coincidences of humor and joy will find you.

Let intuition be a delight.

antennas on standby

"So...like...are you picking stuff up now? Can you really turn being psychic on and off?" a friend asked me recently.

"Antennas are down. But I'm on standby," I explained.

See, I don't want to be 'on' all the time, picking up things that aren't meant for me.

I'm in standby mode..

1. if I'm needed, beep me in

2. if there's something I need, alert me

That's how it works for me, at least at this point. I think I'd be zapped to a crisp any other way. I think I sometimes put the antenna down too much, as a way of keeping balance. Disconnect. Everybody outta my pool. My space. But that changes.

For sure, I'm continually exploring this concept of on-off and growing with it. The idea of antennas works for me for sure...as I picture there are various channels/frequencies that I can choose to tune into (and not tune into...it's a choice).

Besides, I don't think people want to feel like I'm reading them, you know? If they are open, and it's important, the antennas will come off standby.

The ideal for me now is standby.

aspirations not dreams

Been reading to my 14 year old son The Last Lecture, with a theme of achieving childhood dreams.

The obvious mom question to Chad was:

"So, what are your dreams?"

"Aspirations. Not dreams, Mom. I only have one really. To be happy." Chad is clear. "Well, it would be fantastic to run Nintendo, I suppose. Well, maybe not run it, but be the game idea person. Not the person doing the drawings, but the person supervising. The one with the ideas and people telling me how they won't work. But they do work. That would be fun."

No need for me to coach. Just to learn. Know who you are.

Is 'be happy' too simple, too vague?

Motto: aspire vs perspire

sacred a$$hole

"You are comfortable with your guardian angel, but are you comfortable with your sacred asshole?!?"
Funny guidance that came through for a client recently, eh!?

"You've come far on being okay with what is...accepting yourself...being in the moment...but you still judge the asshole. Don't. Be real. Be honest. Be in your integrity. Be in the truth of your thoughts and feelings. Just allow your sacred asshole, Your Old Man Coyote Trickster, when the moment is right!"

Don't we all do this? Self judging behaviors we don't like in ourself or others. Over controlling our emotions. Over riding our gut with oughtas. For example, we intellectually know that being angry doesn't much serve us, so we disown it. But not dealing with the anger and repressing it is actually worse. We need to face it.

be aware of the anger, go into it. through is the way.
By digging into what is real, all parts of ourselves, our humanity, our ugliness, our beauty, our fear...embracing who we are...all of our selves...in this awareness, we can't help but naturally become more loving. Really. Sometimes tough love. But love.

confession of an anti-asshole
Someone told me a couple years to act Latin. He'd rather I walk across the room and smack him a good one then hold it in. I don't really think he wanted me to smack him (I tried it. It didn't work for either of us. Just saying.) He just wanted me to be in the moment, to be true. He was right. And, it was raw and ugly. But it was true.

your turn!
But like everything, don't take my word for it. Try it. Allow your sacred asshole when it comes up. And oh,
please share your stories to rid us all of our "too nice syndrome." Add a comment!


Motto: Embrace your sacred a$$hole.
How's that for spiritual guidance.

message delivery for you

Out of the blue, at the end of a consultation, my client told me, "I want to participate in your upcoming workshop, honoring that you're moving more and more from individual work to group work. I know you'll do both, but just more group work. I think it would be good for me."

"Really. Hmmm. What makes you say that I'll be doing more group work?" I replied.

"I don't know. Just feel it I guess. Right. And it makes sense, too, in terms of your time and making a living," he goes on.

"Well. Interesting you should say that. Because I haven't in any way announced this, but I have been wondering and asking for guidance on this. Thanks for confirming it for me! It's time for more group teaching. Clearly you were bringing me the message. Besides helping me, thanks, this also validates your intuition is right on. Thanks for sharing," I beamed.

Sweet, eh, how the answers come to us.

Motto: Messages come to us from those who are open.

will timmy and eloise breakup?

Driving to school today, my son tells me about 'another irony.' "I told friends yesterday that Clayton and Ashley would break up real soon. And everybody said there was no way because they were doing so well (after all...they've been going out a long time...a whole month!). And guess what. They broke up yesterday."

"Hmmm. So you knew."

"YEH. I knew. I don't know how. But I knew. I always seem to get things like that," he continues.

That's how it works for me often, too. I just know. I know it as clear as I know my name. I just know. No logic. No reason. No evidence. But I know. It's called claircognizance (clear knowing) but whatever. It feels a lot like a thought, but it's not. If you pay attention, you will even begin to notice how that kind of 'knowing' is a different flavor.

He left the car by saying, "Well. Part of what I know is also that Timmy and Eloise will breakup within 2 weeks. We'll see."

As I drive off, I recall Chad "informing" me months back that I really ought to breakup with some guys quicker. Once you know, you know. Haha.

Point of interest: middle schoolers teach me how to breakup

UPDATE FROM CHAD. Yup. I called it. They broke up. No one else saw it coming and thought they had a really good relationship. But I called it.

reeling in the real

Both are real.

I need space. I need connection.
I want in. I want out.
I need ownership of my learning. I need guidance in my learning.
I need rest. I need activity.
He treats me better than I could imagine. He doesn't treat me how I want to be treated.
I am love. I am not love.
I am clear. I am confused. (or at least sometimes clearly confused)
I am patient. I am impatient.
I am critical. I am accepting.
I am a guardian angel. I am a b&tch.

Both are true.
Both are real.
I choose in the moment what to embrace.
The confusion is when I need it to be one thing.
The clarity is embracing it all.

And the only thing to do is to be me in this moment.
"just show up," my teacher says.
And that...I'm grateful for.

Motto: Love paradox.

my name is bill

"You can call me Bill," my son Chad tells his science teacher on the first day of 8th grade science.

The teacher pauses. "Bill? Are you sure?"

"Yup. Call me Bill." Chad assures him.

Sensing something's off, the teacher asks the class if there is anyone who can confirm his name is Bill. When Chad tells me the story, he boasts, "Mom! You wouldn't believe it!! 3 people in the class raised their hands!!"

"Bill is an unusual nickname for someone named Chad. Are you sure you want to be called Bill for the rest of the year, cuz I'll call you that if you want," his teacher jokes.

When I asked Chad why he did it, he told me, "Why not!? I mean, what's it going to hurt to be called Bill 2 hours a week for a year."

Afterall, he didn't pick his own name, so why not try on a new one.

His dad was not pleased. I laughed my head off. Chad requested I support him on back-to-school night. When I met the teacher I smiled and said, "Hi, I'm Chad's mom. You know, Bill. Thanks for letting him do this little social experiment with his name."

Teacher was great. He didn't care. Told me he'd call him whatever he wanted and he wasn't disrupting anything.

Great attitude. Change your hair. Change your name. Change your clothes. Change your attitude. Try on something new. Yeah, Bill.

Motto: Shake it up a little.

Yes. I drew that picture.

what clock did i create...comeon...be psychic

"What clock did I create?" my son asked me of his shop (ahem, excuse me, technical education) project. "Come on! Guess! Be psychic."

"Oh. I dunno. I don't usually get stuff like that, sweets. I get more life lessons and stuff like that." I replied.

"Oh, Momma. Yes, you do. Just guess."

Breath. "Fire!" I said. (knowing most of the kids made footballs, seemed unlikely)

"Could be," he replied. "Guess again."

"Fire!" I insisted.

"Guess again," he replied again.

"Okay then. A campfire! A candle with a flame! A ball of fire! Red. Golden?!"

"Yup," he admits with a chuckle.

"Really? Ha! Fun! What exactly is the wood clock you made?"

"A comet! It's a red ball of fire. haha, Mom! Told you that you do see things like that."

Motto: Play psychic games. Be surprised.

that leaf left his family

I recall my son's younger days, when a walk by a tree's falling leaves in the autumn drew the empathic remark, "Ohhh. Look. That leaf left his family."

Such connection with the natural world.

I remember showing him the water crystals work of Dr Masuro Emoto (the effects of words and intentions on water) which drew a remarkably different response from adults than from him.


Adults logical comments were:
--has this experiment been successfully replicated?
--interesting implications if humans are 70% water
--how did he take pictures of water crystals?
--is this true of snow flakes? etc.

My son's response:
--"I feel sorry for that water."
--"Why would someone write hate?"
--"Of course the water would not like it."

I look for proof. My son knows.


Several stories about the nature of highly intuitive children are captured in Doreen Virtue's book, Crystal Children. I met Doreen and we spoke of my son and I sent her a few stories that she included in the book. In fact, my mom heard her speak once and she told a couple of my son's stories.

Motto: Notice children notice simple truths.

get outta my head

I often sing a silly song to my dog to the tune of Spiderpig, ahem, I mean Spiderman.
"Kodiak, Kodiak, does whatever a Kodiak does. Looks so cute. What a hoot. Lookout, here comes the Kodiak".... and so on, bathroom humor removed

The other day I started singing it to the tune of Jesus Christ Superstar, without realizing it.
"Kodiak, Cute-iak, cuddly, happy, licky, love me, fur attack. Kodiak, maniac...and so on"

Then I hear..."WHY ARE YOU SINGING THAT!? THAT'S NOT THE SAME TUNE!"

"Uh, dunno," I smartly replied. "Was it different? I can make up whatever studid song to whatever stupid tune."

"NO WAY. I'VE BEEN HUMMING THAT....IN MY HEAD....NOT OUT LOUD. GET OUTTA MY HEAD, GOOF!"

haha. We laughed. I was tempted to tease with what else I know...but truth is, I had no idea I was doing it. Lately I've been playing a little day-to-day-be-psychic game. That's what I got. :)

Motto as of late: Love me, love me, ruff, ruff

do you happen to be a genetic scientist?

"How will my husband do with a move?" I'm asked.

"Hmmm. Seems like his work opportunities wouldn't really be satisfying.

It's kinda like this example..."

"A genetic scientist could be working on the whole genome or a chromosome. He's currently doing more big picture, whole genome, many variables. But he'd like to work on a focused topic, like a single chromosome, one genetic issue. And that opportunity for focusing exists here, not if you move. He'd be giving up the type of work and problems that satisfy him."

The consultation continues on various topics. As the client is leaving, she turns around and says, "Oh. By the way, my husband IS a genetic scientist."

Tee, hee. I knew it was a helpful example, but I didn't even know it was that literal.

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AND...to be continued...

Last week I was consulting with someone and told that story as an example of how intuition can work. Intend...then notice what you notice and share. Sometimes it can feel like a very clear thought. The story seemed useful, but a bit out of place...as if a different story would be better for her, but ahhh, I get what I get.

The next client sat down. I asked how he heard about me. "My wife," he says.

And immediately, I know. "Ahhhh, you don't happen to be a genetic scientist, do you?"

"That's me. Seems you may have some information for me, too."

Double tee, hee.

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OH, AND....

As we're consulting, I'm aware of some personal noise I accumulated from someone who frequently told me scientists won't get this kind of thing. They need proof. Even though I know to share freely, I'm hearing his voice track a few times, breathing, releasing it and just doing what I do. The scientist listened and asked intently. I shared like I would with any client.

Then I noticed a pattern I've seen. Sometimes (not always), highly 'in tune' people get messages that are more breadcrumbs and guidance on how to proceed, not the laid out answer. And he's getting the breadcrumbs. Ah, ha. Perhaps this scientist is highly in tune. Personal noise, down boy! Breathe.

Then, upon leaving, the scientist smiles, gives me a knowing wink, and says, "It's always nice to get spiritual guidance."

Motto: Just do what you do. Some will like it, some won't. Whatev.

1,291,928,083 choices

So I'm approximately 1,291,928,083 seconds old. (you do the math)

Each second I choose how to spend my time. A billion choices of what I do, what I think about, how I feel.

Interesting. I spent the last 4 days unplugging. Time to myself. Realized I need to reel in some plans right now and move a little more day to day, step by step. At least for now. But while staying focused on my goals. Just not so focused on the plan. Then I can choose in each moment steps that move towards my goal.

Right now, those steps are Rest. As soon as I start to do anything else, my inner tuning pulls me back to rest.

Okay, okay. I put down the paintbrush. I put down the box. I turned off the phone. I picked up the wine glass. And a book. Hugged my son. Hammock time. I like this second.

Motto: In this second.

don't argue with reality

Don't argue with reality.

Love what is.

'Nuff said.

in moments of doubt, how the answers flow

Sometimes I wonder....

"What am I doing?"
"Am I actually truly helping anyone?"
"Is psychic a distraction from the real inner work of conscious development?" (it can be)

And in those brief moments, all my thousands of moments of magic and beauty seem so far away. All the validation. All the proof. All of it vanishes for a moment, or hour, or day.

And then, without fail...An email, or a call.

"Meredith, I just want you to know I read the blog you wrote about me everyday. You've helped me SOOOO much."

"Meredith. Whenever I take a workshop with you I am so much more open and everything starts flowing. Everything seems so much clearer. I'm so thankful!"

Oh, oh timing. What a gift. How the answers to my questions flood back to me still amazes me.

As the years go on, my heart expands and I see so much beauty and courage of the human spirit. And I see so much more suffering and pain. I feel both more intensely. I like it that way. And I wonder how else I can make a difference, in my own life and the lives of others. And even though I don't operate on feedback, having some now and then still helps churn the engine.

easy :: not so easy

Learning to get intuitions. EASY.

• Decide you want intuitive guidance.
• It will find you. Really.
• Notice what you notice and follow it.
• Really that simple.

Learning to live true to yourself always. NOT SO EASY.

• Intuitive guidance ultimately connects you to mind-body-spirit balance. Oh, balance.
• When you're conscious and you're following the guidance, it will lead you to what you need. Not always what you want.
• Reorganizing your life to fit the ways you are changing on the inside. Challenging.
• Reorganizing your mind. Whoa.
• Making your emotions more intelligent. Whoooaaaaa.
• Dark night of the soul period. Period.
• Simplifying your life. Not always so simple.

Motto as of late: There's a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.

just dance - love this video!

Just dance. Even dance badly.

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Motta as of late: Do what you love

it comes in a form that you aren't expecting

In keeping with my son's, and my, realization that it is good for me to be able to receive help more easily, I sat yesterday and sent out energy on my willingness to exchange energy around certain types of help I give freely (like ways I've helped people learn) and certain types of help I could use right now. I considered some possible forms of the assistance and just trusted I'd be surprised.

Oh, was I.

Yesterday I received a call from a dear friend who came right out and offered the type of help I need. And even mentioned how I helped him learn. Funny. And.....I said, "Oh, no. But thanks anyway." Change subject.

And yesterday, I received another call from a family member who came right out and said, "What can I do to help?" And I said, "Nothing. But thanks anyway."

DUH

And neither time did I even realize what I'd done until later talking with my mom on the phone.

DOUBLE DUH

Both forms of help weren't really in the form I wanted. Oh, hello.
But probably exactly in the form I needed.
And only partially in the physical need sense. More in the "spiritual need" sense.

Jury is still out on whether it's enough to notice how easily these people, both with lots of psychic sense though neither would describe it that way, connected and tuned in with me. I'm full of gratitude and tickled at what happened. Or do I have to actually receive the help. LOL.
Motto as of late: Duh, duh, duh, duhhhhhh.....duh, duh, duh, duhhhhhhh....

as a kid i 'just knew it'

Doing a bunch of house cleaning/clearing and lightening the load. Came across a folder with old notes and cards.

Several times I saw comments I wrote to others, such as:

• "I just KNEW it"
• "I just KNEW it"
• "I don't know where I got these notecards. They were just in my desk. They just appeared. But aren't they cute!"
• "I just KNEW it"

Worth a giggle.

Still pitched the folder and a dozen other bags of old stuff I just don't need anymore. As sweet as the giggle was, it isn't worth the weight or space of that folder.

Motto as of late: Travel lightly

it'll happen this september

"I don't think the person you're with is someone you'll be happy with long-term. I see you meeting a guy you'll marry in October and he is blah, blah, blah."

"Yes. I do believe you will be able to have children. Though with the assistance of in-vitro, not naturally. It'll happen in September. I see 9's. Yup. This September."

Specific. Way specific.

"Seems like it's possible this relationship could work out happily in the end. But right now it's undetermined. You need to center on you and your needs and just put them out there and see how he responds. Then you'll know. Oh, and stop nagging him. Instead, _____. He feels beat up and picked on by you and also others. He's tired and exhausted. There is some good energy in this relationship and potential though. You've put a lot of emotional investment into this, right? Well don't give up yet. Recenter. Lay off. In 2-4 weeks, put your needs out there and see what happens."

Uh, very different kind of specific.

I get what I get. I'm just a messenger.

they're both right

A client is working out some intricacies of intuition.

"Why did my vibes say to date him and that this is good?" And "Why did my vibes say he isn't right for me?" I was wrong.

AHHHH...but they were both right. Nice job.
It was good to date him. MUCH came from the experience.
And it's good to not date him forever. For many of the reasons she intuited and experienced, he isn't a good long-term match for her.
Start thinking of vibes as getting information about the essence of a situation, self, person. Then use the information to make a decision.

Stop thinking of it as getting the RIGHT answer. Stop waiting to be told what to do.

Just need to know what you need to know for right now. No more. No less.

Motto as of late: For now.

timing for no alcohol

Years ago another intuitive person and I had 'weird vibes' about her husband and alcohol.

Doesn't seem like an alcoholic?!

But what is it? She thought something was wrong. My intuition confirmed. But vaguely. Something isn't right there. Not really sure what. Keep an eye out for him and alcohol.

Well...years become now and turns out his body is completely rejecting any alcohol at all. Psychotic reaction.

1. Bummer. But at least he loooovvveees icecream.
2. Timing. Timing. Timing.

Motto as of late: For now. (We know when we're supposed to know.)

now reactions are more subtle

Was hanging around with someone who did a little freak out. Got all blue. Dunno why.

Old Me would have responded intensely:

• What's wrong? Are you okay?
• What'd I do? Did I do something?
• What can I do? How can I fix it?
• What does this mean? Is this a sign?
• I hope everything's okay.
• What should I do?
• Feel better?!
• Etc....for minutes, hours, days...

Now Me did subtly:

• Let's walk.
• Sit?
• Ahhh. Pretty lake.
• I'm here.

It passed. All that was needed.

New day.

no coincidences

My client comes really early for no reason, some reason. I could go eat as planned now, or go ahead and work with her now then go eat. I'll go eat after. Feels right.

I'm introduced to another regular customer at counter while ordering. We briefly chat about how fantastic the owners are and how we love this place, Steam Cafe (17th and R, NW). He asks what I do. I tell him I'm an intuitive. He says, "No wonder. It's the energy here. You get it." Smile.

We chat briefly. Turns out he teaches the I Ching. I've always wanted to learn that. He says, "You know, no coincidences. Just meant to meet." Right on.

Then he mentions out loud, "I'm going to move here now. Need an apartment." And the owner says, "Why, I have an apartment for you. Just available now."

When you're really vibing, what you need often comes right to you.

lentil soup that's more than soup

Whenever I'm working down at Tulsi Holistic Living in Dupont Circle, I look forward to going to Steam Cafe (corner of 17th and R, NW...GO!). Moroccan owners. Their lentil soup, magnificent. And yesterday, bastilla I didn't even ask for but was phenomenal! Why? Just because. For you! You'll like it! No charge.

The crepes, chai, soup, etc is all awesome. And I appreciate good food, loved food.

But that's not why I go. Though it's reason enough.

I go because I love the owners. They are warm and kind. Their eyes are clear and beautiful and open. And they want me to be happy. Me likes. Me happy.

So yesterday, the owner says, "I'm not in the food business. I'm in the people business. You can get food anywhere."

Enough said.

would you watch?

The recent incident of the man who was struck by a car and others watched without helping him is sparking much discussion about our culture's willingness to help others.

We all want to believe we'd help someone in need. But do we do actually do it when the opportunity arises? Or do we hesitate? Do we watch? Are we afraid of making things worse? Are we waiting for someone else to do it?

1) What would you want done if that was you or your father or child?
2) What will you do this week to actively engage in helping someone else...in a little or big way?

Don't just spectate. Participate.

no bad vibes

No bad vibes. All good vibes.

Just go sailing.

No predictions. No insights. Just go. That's it. No more psychic anything.

Oh...the folks sailing the boat had never done it on their own before. But besides the fact that I totally trust them....I also totally trust that I've built a strong relationship with my intuition and I trust I'll get guidance when needed. Rest of the time...just sail with it....

the blatantly obvious

Two coaches standing on the other side of the field. Not really speaking to each other at any game. When one speaks the other looks away or walks away. Kids confused about what to do.
Coaches ain't seeing eye-to-eye or collaborating.

At the end of the season, some parents are surprised by this. "Did you know there were problems between the coaches?" I was asked repeatedly. "Sure. They were never communicating with each other or responding to each other. I noticed."

"Well...." I heard, "You SEE things. Of course you noticed." Wink, wink.

But actually, it was totally non-psychic. Blatantly obvious to me, but not psychic. I have no inside scoop on why, the motivations, what's happening at a soul level, etc. Just the obvious lack of communication.

My teachers taught me to use all my senses and skills. I am a sensory person. Use it all. Use my reasoning. Use my emotions. Use my five senses. Use my sixth sense. Notice body language.(and when signals seem different, the sixth sense is the most accurate)

One of the best first steps in becoming more intuitive, is simply to notice everything more. Notice the colors of flowers, the sway of trees and how each is unique, the songs of birds, your various emotions, the different types of buildings on your drive to work, the many shades of of red in the room right now, the density of the wind on your skin, everything.

It's a richer, more vibrant life, and you become more attuned to noticing your sixth sense.

Notice the obvious. Notice the unseen. Notice what you notice.

it's not impossible - please meet "Prove It"

Meet Prove It, my Inner Skeptic. Hello, Prove It. How are you today? Not sure. Okay.

I love Prove It. If I didn't have Prove It, I'd be just jumping on every bandwagon and drifting after every last crazy idea.

Thank you Prove It for keeping me straight, for helping me validate, experience, gain proof. You've kept me focused and I love ya.

I've developed a pretty nice relationship with Prove It over the last few years. We get along well now that we've stopped resisting each other and understand each other's roles. See, Meredith is meant to explore and learn and grow and stretch and try on new ideas and work through them. And Prove It is meant to keep Meredith in check. We collaborate.

There's a trick I've found to settling Prove It's intensity when he gets a bit out of hand. I remind Prove It that for some things, it can be a bit hard to prove but we've got lots of interesting evidence, enough to explore more anyway, so let's go. It's hard to prove 'I love you" too, afterall.

So...Prove It can sometimes be settled (though not sated) with the words....
"It's not impossible that _________________ is true."
I can't really prove it's true. But I can't really prove it isn't true either. So no need to get stuck. It's really not impossible that it is true. Keep going.

I so recommend getting to know and work with your inner skeptic. It's fabulously liberating.

Motto as of late: "And you don't believe it!??? That's shocking."

special shout out to fellow superblogger...i'm test driving a "motto" ending. totally dig your listening and feeling clever summarizers...may i adapt/adopt??

how's your strep throat? (and the clairs)

"Um. What?" she asked questioning. "How did you know that?" responded my girlfriend to my greeting her phone call with a "Hey, girl, how's your strep throat doing?"

"Why, you told me a few days ago when we talked, I guess," I responded without really thinking about it, frankly.

"Um. No, Meredith. I didn't. Because I woke up with it this morning. In fact, I'm driving to the doctor right now. I didn't tell you. How did you know? You crack me up."

Funny. She's known me since I was 15 years old. She knows I 'know things' but it's still amusing to us both. I didn't even realize I was intuiting.

It's just so normal and I'm so used to 'just knowing' (claircognizance or 'clear knowing' is my primary way, then clairvoyant, then clairsentient, then clairaudient. not sure what you call clair-smellient, but I've experienced that too...and wonder if it is possible to be clair-tastient, lol...hoping all my wine tasting will develop into that, too...hmm...pleasant tastes only please?!).

Anyhow...
It goes back to my teacher Jim telling me not to get caught up in having to know if it's a thought or intuition or whatever, just follow it. I have clear thoughts. I have clear intuitions. Just go with it. Right on.

As it turns out, I think that strep throat intuition was meant to launch off a bit on the subject of intuition, which I believe my friend is exploring quite a bit as of late. So there really was a purpose in saying what I got and I'm glad it just flowed out of my mouth.

Motto as of late: Don't hold back.


I think it helps a lot of people to identify their intuitive style. By focusing on one's strength, one can better allow their intuition. That's one of my specializations in working with people, I 'just know' people's style and can suggest techniques best matched to one's style.

• Clairvoyance: Clear seeing. Seeing in the minds eye is a lot like seeing a memory or imagining a vision or picture, though sometimes it is stronger like a presence right there. (Do you tend to learn visually?)
• Clairaudience: Clear hearing. Hearing in the mind's ear is a lot like remembering a sound, though sometimes it is a lot stronger like I turn around. (Do you tend to learn by listening?)
• Clairsentience: Clear sensing. This is really feeling vibes in your body. (Do you tend to learn by doing or get strong sensations in your body?)
• Claircognizance: Clear knowing. 'I just know' is so close to a crystal clear thought, but it comes more from the belly than the mind, though can be hard to tell. It does have a ring, ping and clearness to it. A purity. Not so thick or dense as many thoughts. I work with a lot of claircognizant people to develop because it is a profound way of knowing but probably one of the hardest to trust. (Do you tend to get strong gut feelings without knowing why?)

With all that said...I've had psychic smells, too...don't feel you need to put yourself in one of these labels...describe it in your own words. And just like learning, most people have multiple styles that work, but stronger ones. What ways do you get intuitions?

UPDATE: just came across this:
Clairaliance: clear smelling (a favorite of spirits for connecting, mediumship)
Clairambience: clear tasting
makes sense that someone had a name for it.... :)

follow that glow

When I'm around certain people, and one particular person as of late, I see so much energy.

Interestingly, it isn't actually the other person glowing. It's as if I'm seeing my own energy field tune in and turn on. My hands buzz. I'm seeing all this wavy energy around myself, almost like heat off a highway.

Okay, I hear you. He turns me on or heats me up. Right on. But this only happens in certain moments, with certain people, and as sensual as I can be they are simply just not all turning me on. LOL. It's a signal to me to pay attention because there's something in me digging this or that can learn from this person. It's a pay attention signal, a 'hello' from myself, 'notice this now.' It's quite beautiful having such a physical signal.

By the way, this started back when I first learned Reiki. I love teaching energy work to others. Seeing the wonder on someone's face when they first feel the energy in their hands. Awesome. Anyway....

When I see myself glow, I follow the signal. And isn't it sweet to seriously say, "I just glow when i'm around him" ?

I've heard from others that they get physical sensations that signal them. Feel free to share yours.

the unmasking me

I wonder what are all the things I say about myself and who I am ....wait for it....that aren't actually true; my own little self delusions or masks of protection, the protective me rather than true me.

I am amused at how this one person I know who think he's so open-minded (and so do others) is actually quite a rigid thinker and a somewhat close-minded person who is extremely hard to convince of any new idea outside his mental construct. Yet there's this other person who says he 'needs rules' and doesn't have that same 'air of free thinker' emanating from him, yet he is the one who is totally willing to engage new concepts and ideas, explore and even embrace them. Fascinating really. They don't even see themselves this way. Others don't see, well, some of us do. But it is fascinating.

I think of myself as shy, but there is also plenty of evidence to the contrary.
To me, intuition is about listening to my true self and expressing my true self.
Underneath the masks, beneath the layers of defenses and shoulds and fears, that me.

The me that is unbridled.
The me that is the moment, and not an old story or fear of the future.
The me beyond my gender and race and suburban upbringing.

Of course, it gets more complex because there are all these parts of me...but still...I'm integrating them all and more consciously choosing what to express in the moment. That's the real purpose for intuition.
The inner guidance me.

This is what my intuition brings me as its gift. The ability to get through layers to truth of who I am, who others are, and bring it out.
The unmasking me.

The irony of my given name of Self isn't lost on me, for sure. Nor the collection of masks I started years ago...I didn't see it then, but I do now.

Time now for the tea me.

on a not so serious note

I did a couple readings for a mom whose daughter died recently. She wanted to, and we did, communicate with her daughter.

I wish the mom could feel, hear and see what I'm seeing. There's the mom, there's the daughter...they are on different planes, in different bodies...but I'm looking at their consciousness and their purpose and their connection and the beautiful interchange between them. I wish she could see how thin the boundary really is.

I enjoyed myself. I could hear the daughter's accent and feel her bright, mischievious and purposeful spirit. And the mom's spirit is so vibrant even in the midst of this sadness.

My teacher said my job is to just 'show up' and do what I do, be who I am. That's all I did. No more important than any other reading, no less important than any other reading. In fact, this person was experiencing significantly less distress than many who ask questions about relationships, career, moving, health and the like.

I think the mom, like many of my clients, is moving towards this thinner boundary. I think she'll be instrumental in others noticing this, as well. Bright spot on my day to see anyone tackling grief with such grace.

something to talk about in the locker room

I have a new role model....she's 80 and fabulous....and maude

Harold and Maude is a total must see movie. My son and I watched it recently and my 13 year old boy aspires to be more like this 80 year old woman. Awesome.

Intuition isn't just about seeing the future and answering all your questions now. Intuition is about noticing, listening, hearing your true spirit and acting on it. Living creatively in each moment. Making choices based on your inner world and outer world. Maude is so in the moment and playful and free...and she frees others.

"Reach out. Take a chance. Get hurt even. But play as well as you can. Go team, go! Give me an L. Give me an I. Give me a V. Give me an E. L-I-V-E. LIVE! Otherwise, you got nothing to talk about in the locker room. " -Maude

People around me often want me to come up with something magical or predict something. But I really just want to live a normal life. I'm happy to use my sixth sense to tune into the spirit of others to help them, but day-to-day, I really just want to be Maude...living life. And as my teacher Jim says, all I really have to do is just "Show Up."

"If you want to sing out" theme song by Cat Stevens.

giggling at gum

Standing in line to get a lovely cup of chai latte, oh my treat, I see a girl giggling and jumping up and down. Simply because she was going to get a piece of gum. Oh, the thrill with her arms reached to the sky in anticipation.
Raw. Pure. No holding back.

I giggled too. And when I got my chai, I smiled wide in eagerness and sipped it as the delicacy it is to me. I just can't get the milk steamed quite like this. I gave thanks for a few things, like the ability to delight in something frivolous like chai latte on occasion, as well as my son and friends and the cool air and my favorite jeans with the holes ripped in the knees and my dog that is calming down and....

People remark to me sometimes that I'm like a little girl. I believe it is meant as a compliment...but I take it that way none the less. I hope that with each passing day I become simultaneously younger and older, with perfect harmony between the two. Caring less and less what others think, laughing more at myself, being more present in the moment. Giggling at gum. Chai cheers to that....

you're too independent you know

My son reminded me again, in his perfect timing, of something to pay attention to now.

There's an area in my life where I need to make some corrections and get on track. Was mediating in the am on some ways to do this. One of the messages was to allow myself to receive help, which I quickly did a 'yeah, right, this is my problem let me deal with it' attitude, but I'll do the other things that came up.

Well in the evening, I was talking to my son about getting him to and from soccer. He suggested I let someone else drive him. I said, "No. I'll do it." He looked at me, in the 'wise eyes' mode, and said, "You are being too independent. You really should let others help you." I told him it's no big deal I can drive him. He again, in sage mode, said, "No. I mean about everything. You really should let people help you more."

Funny. I'm so willing to help others. I have to be willing to receive as well as give. Receive in areas where I can use support and give in the areas where I can support others. It's so obvious. I was thinking more of a one-to-one correlation on the topics of giving and receiving, but time, money, love, teaching are all energy and can all exchange for each other. Duh.

I'm letting someone who offered to help me, help me.

Do you give more? Or receive more? How are you balancing independence and interdependence in your life?

so, you admit you're psychic

There's this wide, wide step between knowing you have some psychic experiences and saying "I'm psychic."

But we are all psychic and have this natural sense. And psychic just means 'of the soul'...not fortune telling the next day's events. I talk to people repeatedly who've had dozens, hundreds, countless experiences with intuitions yet struggle to admit they are psychic. It's not a special power, folks. It's just our sixth sense readily available to us.

I say, you name it-you claim it.

I'd love to see some of you blog readers comment back on this post and somewhere in there say it...'I'm psychic.' Go ahead. You can do it. You will inspire others to do the same and it will significantly magnify the strength of your own psychic sense. Let's hear it....take a moment to comment.

And then check out how my son encouraged me to do it:
Mom, tell him what you really do

buttons, buttons...who pushed my buttons!?

Are there some people, especially those closest to you, who can just push your buttons...rather, your buttons just go haywire around them at times? Uh, yeah. Got that going on.

Actually, the buttons kinda implode and crack and spew...they don't just push. Just being honest.

I've been watching myself closely in these button launching moments as of late. I'm watching them like a bad movie that I should turn off but just don't seem to move to change the channel.

I mean, I dearly, deeply love and respect the person who witnesses (had to scratch out 'causes') the button fiasco happening...so...next time, I'll try "changing the channel "and just see what happens. As I go in the 'lovey' channel again, I can simply choose to button and unbutton without so much tension... I mean, so much about intuition is about being more aware, more perceptive, more conscious in my choices...so I like this analogy to notice, observe and choose to just change the channel.

I think I should name the channel just to make it more powerful. Higher Reasoning Channel. Channel Love. Channel 4 (mind-body-emotions-spirt..all working together). Open to suggestions....

twenty-four fantabulous hours of exposure to beautiful people

The past 24 hours has been so inspiring with my clients, one after another after another...from last night to this morning to this evening.

Ahhhh. As I have the pleasure and priviledge to see other's vulnerability and true self, both strengths and weaknesses, I find myself filled with awe at the beauty, the brilliance of the human spirit....underneath at all. In contrast to the mental suffering we put ourselves through based on untruths.

In my own life, I was reminded so many times this 24 hours of ways I make my own life (and those I love) harder sometimes (sometimes a lot!). It's really just some bad habits to clear up. But for today, I smile at such silliness and poorly placed energy.

The beauty of all these creative, conscious, exploring, open people fills me with the interest to simply enjoy each moment today. Each moment. The health questions, the car buying, the silliness, the doubts, the dancing, the eating, the everything.

For today only, I choose to see beauty in others. And tomorrow, I'll start over and choose the same.

thoughts at the same time as another person

I thought about this woman I met a couple times and got a strong urge to contact her. I made a task on my planner to call her in the afternoon just to say hi and suggest meeting for lunch.

In the afternoon, I get an email from her that I've been really on her mind so she's just emailing to say hi...and while reading it my alarm for the task goes off to call her.

I laugh. Hilarious. I guess there's a 'reason' for us to meet, not that we need one.

Well, today we met up and now I know why...there are a bunch of different connections and ways we can support and enjoy each other. Fun that we both tuned into it.

check's in the mail...really

I get this sudden insight that I'm going to get a check in the mail. Okay, I wonder. Why would I get a check in the mail? Is that wishful thinking or actually going to happen? Doesn't seem like a gift, nor from anyone I know.

I chuckle to myself and the Universe that I'll happily accept checks in the mail. Then I think to myself, why not write the amount myself! So I make up a ridiculous number of zeros. And it occurs to me, "No, how about 100 or 200 dollars, just enought to justify to myself a little purchase I wanted to make." That'll work.

Well, guess what. In my mailbox the next day was a check for $169. My mortgage company sent back escrow overage for the year. I've had mortgages for 20 years and in the past that amount has never been sent to me in a check but applied to the next year.

Fun. I didn't manifest it coming, I just tuned into it coming. Now to manifest with zeros.

are you getting anything?

Just a regular conversation with a friend or family member, hey, hello, howareya. At some point, it's not uncommon for me to hear, "Are you getting anything on that?"

Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I don't want to, and let people know I'm not objective in this case. And I'm completely comfortable telling others no. I'm happy to help, but sometimes I just want to be 'off' and be a friend and not feel as if I always have to have wise insight for someone. And sometimes I feel that the emergency beeper I've committed to with the Universe (beep me when you need me, I'm available) was accidentally publicized by me.

There are a few people who've I've given blanket permission to always ask, any time. And who have given me blanket permission to always suggest. Making it more comfortable for us, clear about boundaries, and because it gives us both opportunities to explore things in new ways (something I wouldn't do with a client, for example).

What I don't want right now is to always feel 'on' .... free to be on and off at will. I'm curious how this will develop over the years. Perhaps it's just still a transition going from 9-5 to 24/7. I know that even with 24/7, I need my me time and I'm still exploring the best ways to carve that space.

got "snagged" by son's intuition

Intense that one was. My psychic son knew what was happening (totally snagged me) in a 'delicate' situation and called me out on it very directly with a question. If I'm not straight with him, I risk shutting his intuition down...that's a no-no...if I'm straight with him, oh, man, there's going to be some explaining to do. Is he really ready to know the truth about this topic?

"Yup, you're right on. That is what's happening." I tell him.

If he's old enough to get it intuitively, he's old enough to talk about it. So we did. Like it or not.

intuitive bonus or threat?

If I get a vision, insight or whatever about something related to my own life and another person, is it lording over the other person with an unfair advantage!? Is it okay if I'm right about the insight? Is it not okay if I'm wrong about the insight?
(Surely when people have an 'idea' it isn't always right either, so why should an intuition "have to be" right?...And sometimes the insight is about something somewhat negative, but truth even when not so positive can be of great assistance....but I digress...)

So if I notice something 'unseen' or that hasn't happened yet, does that give me an unfair advantage?

How about a situation in a relationship or partnership where one person is far more intelligent than another....should the intelligent one stop being intelligent to make the field more 'fair'?

If someone has previous experience in a work situation, for example, should the person withhold it so as not to threaten a colleague?

I'd say not.

So long, of course, as the intelligent (intuitive, experienced, whatever) person isn't manipulating, taking advantage of, condescending to, or trying to hurt the other, then having the ability in the partnership is a bonus. Right?

Or do I need to make it more of a bonus, a gift. I know sometimes I hesitate, don't want to interfere, and sometimes only share intuitions in more concerning areas. Is this occasional issue my own confidence in communication, or is it others' lack of confidence and desire to not have something be seen, for whatever reason?

I think I'll explore ways for it be a benefit to those around me in a non-intrusive way...like a bonus or a gift. And explore alternative ways to communicate intuitions, like...."My vibes say..." "I wonder if this could work for us?" "Do you think it would be interesting if we tried this?" "I have the sense this may be happening, do you have any thoughts or clarification on that?" "Let's invest in this stock :) "

Or perhaps I'll play a sarcastic act as Emma the Omniscient just to swing it another way and see what happens. Oh, wait, I've done that...oops...annoying. Or maybe sometimes I'll just go with the ignorance is bliss. Oh wait, I've done that....oops....can you say 'blind sighted'?

I'll stick with Bonus.

burb-ing, bourbon vibe

The suburbs definitely have a different vibe for me then the city and the mountains and the beach. It's a different ambience, environment, sense about the place. I believe most people can relate to sensing how a place feels different. Well, really, everything has a vibe, and we can tune into the sense about a store, a person, even an idea.

Well, the idea of the burbs is just flat for me. It's not wavy, or sparkly. It's not fast or slow. It's just flat, like a flatliner. Much sameness. Not much movement. Not much change. I'm far more at peace in the city or in the mountains. Both very different types of movement, but movement. And this is no judgment on the suburbs, just my relationship to it.

I'm a bourbon drinker. I like the spice of it. Prefer that to a Vodka or a Gin, for example. I prefer a Shiraz wine to a Merlot, a chai to a green tea, a Blue Moon to a Bud Light.. And when I used to drink soda, I drank a Dr. Pepper rather than a Coke. To me, I relate the burbs to shelf Vodka, not much taste or flavor for me. Once when I did a reading for someone, and was tuning into the vibe of her move, I got the sense of bourbon and wondered what it meant. I intuitively asked, and got that the move would bring her a kick and some spice. Being descriptive and using analogies helps a lot in this work. And a sip of bourbon after the occasional hard reading is okay, too.

Maybe if I drink more bourbon in the burbs, there will be more movement for me. :) I think I'll start putting an intention out there to find a bourbon place to live, for me. Hmm, I wonder what that will bring! I better word that one carefully!

LEARN, LEARN...MORE, MORE!

Get more! Do more! Have more! Know more! Be better! Fix! Fix! Fix!

Learn! Acquire! Succeed! Master!

Such a fast paced life. It's everywhere. The soccer team must win! The participants at the six sensory playgroup must succeed! I must be a better intuitive and get more, more, more for my clients. Figure out and be a master at so many things.

Whoaaaaaaa. In comes my son. Just being. A nice model. Happy to do well, happy to explore, happy to just be, happy to relax, happy to learn, happy to wonder, happy, happy, happy. He isn't struggling. He isn't busy. He isn't overwhelmed. He isn't trying to master everything. His drive is more about experiencing what he wants and not being pushed by others. Even when he's learning, he tends to be more relaxed and curious and wonderous.

He's enjoying his experiences, rather than trying to be the best at them. What a concept to adapt into wisdom.

a 12 year old explains how to disconnect

"Mom," my son says casually at dinner, "You're still connected to your ex-boyfriend. You really need to disconnect. Can you tell when what you are feeling is your feeling or his?"

Wow. He's right. I'd start getting such a heavy, overwhelmed feeling all of a sudden when I'd been feeling fine...and sure enough the phone would ring in a couple minutes and it would be him. I was still tangled up in our connection to each other and experiencing his feelings as my own. Oops. I thought I knew better than that. Takes a 12 year old to point it out.

I practice this with clients, but I have more to learn. I wonder how I'll do it. This is an opportunity and I'm curious.

When putting my son to bed that night, he tells me he has an idea for me. (I perk up, because I can sense that this is one of those moments when he is "in the zone.") "Mom, I think that when you are sensing the emotion, you can check and see- if it is on the right side of the body it is yours and if it is on the left side of the body it is his. I think that will work for you."

In appreciation, I respond, "Wow. Interestingly, the left side of the body does represent the receiving side. I bet I can do that! Thanks, love."

Then we talk about soccer practice. But I'm all grins and giggles.

why the gas station now?

I pulled into the gas station, subconsciously, when I meant to go to the grocery store.

Maybe I need gas. Nah, there's enough for tonight. Oops, I thought, and drove on my way.

Now I shouldn't be surprised....but....sure enough....I ran out of gas (at 2:30 am, no less). Seems my meter that reads the gas level is off. I had a quarter tank earlier, now it's empty. Gotta get that fixed.

As I sit on the side of the road (which was brief, I always seem to get help pretty easily when I need it), I recall earlier the "accidental" stop at the gas station. I was getting a message that I dismissed and didn't feel like bothering with at the time. My son says I just have to pay more attention to those! I catch them alot, but I wonder how many more I miss.

Notice what you notice. That's the key. Got to keep doing that. What fun and help could be in store for me!

he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me...

Keep the dogs, give them away, keep the dogs, give them away...

He loves me, he loves not, stay with him, leave, stay with him, leave....

Sell the house, stay a little longer, sell the house, stay a little longer...

Sometimes, just like everybody else, I just don't want to act on what I know is true and best for me. I push the boundaries checking in repeatedly sometimes. Keep learning lesssons, sometimes the hard way. Keep growing, too, though sometimes there are growing pains.

I can almost feel my guidance take a great, deep, patient breath and answer again....

"You know what to do. Just do it, dear."

Like everybody else, I have my questions and lessons and wonderings and challenges....I may stew a bit, or stall, but I do follow my guidance because it always leads me well.

before enlightenment, laundry...after enlightenment...

Before enlightenment....laundry, dogs, dishes....

Then there's a magnificent, transformative experience...an awakening of sorts...an enlightenment on how I can be more intuitive or more clear or more loving or heal a thought pattern...wow cool. Like 2 weeks ago, there was this major realization about 'don't hold back' and what that means in living authentically for me. Not to mention the whole float in the red river and be 'one with the river, earth, sky thing'...wow.

After enlightenment....laundry, dogs, dishes....

perhaps his foot is broken?

Soccer mom. Gooooaaaaaallll!!!

At the game a boy complains that his foot hurts and doesn't know why. He played in the game anyway.

I mentioned to his mom, "I wonder if he may have a small break in his foot. Might be worth having a doctor check out. Who knows."

Sure enough....it was broken.

I've made an agreement that I'm willing to be of service where I can without prying. Otherwise, the antennae's are down. It's nice to throw in little tips like that in a gentle way though. Hope he heals up quick now.

um, I changed my question

I was doing a reading for someone, after having already done about 8 readings. I was doing the reading blind, which means the person thinks of the question without telling me. I love that. Keeps me super focused on the energy I am sensing since I have no pre-conceived notions at all about the topic.

So I started reading, I started to get a sense of some energy but it was very vague and didn’t quite understand it yet, when suddenly it just.... disappeared...... I tried to focus, but couldn’t get it back. I thought perhaps I’d lost my train of thought from doing so many readings or something and said to the person, “hmm…now where were we…I lost track.”

She started laughing and said, “Um. Sorry. I just changed my question.” We both cracked up. All in a days work. I love my job.

how the suburban dream turned into a medieval fairy tale, turned into a suburban hope

My client's relationship played out before me like a fairy tale with her man being the proud lord of the manor and ruler of his possession and kingdom, not to mention his wife.

She wasn’t liking that part much and was feeling lonely. Everyone thought she had the princess life and she put on the good smile but was really suffocating underneath. I could feel her choking back and repressing those thoughts & emotions because she feared it could ruin her life. It was hurting her deeply inside.

But beautifully, the fairy tale started to shift and I could see her starting to rule, like a queen rather than princess trapped in a castle. Instead of her husband being the lord, he could be the knight and do her bidding. Of course, a good ruler, a good leader, is a servant. And for it to really work, as the queen, she needed to quietly serve with the intention of doing the best for her subject, her loyal and most trusted knight. Hilarious guidance. She could invite him to new tasks in the kingdom, especially within the castle (the outer, material structures is built, now build the intellectual and emotional structure). This was her area to rule, lead and bring depth to their relationship.

As a lord, he was merely doing what he knew how to do, even if it was controlling. I could see he would be a willing participant in this shift of power to a better balance together.

It was a lovely scene. The queen would need to be quite creative with her tasks. I believe she can do it. She's strong. I hope they build this new life together. That was pretty hilarious and charming all at once. Suburbs turned medieval. Whatever works.

simply clean off the bed

Once I was doing a blind reading, where I didn’t know the person’s question, and all I could see was a vagina. I wasn’t quite sure why, yet. I shared what I saw, chuckled a bit to put her at ease and went on. But then I started to see all this clutter around her. Like dirty clothes on the bed and everything felt messy and overwhelming. I started to explain what was needed.

She stopped me and said, “I just have to tell you my question now. I wasn’t sure I wanted to ask it but I’m glad I did. I’ve been frustrated because I just have NO libido right now. I’m not into it at all and it really is bothering me, not to mention my husband. I feel like I have to force myself.”

Sure enough, she needed to clean off the bed and make a beautiful room for their love. Messes can really can get in the way of all kinds of things.

Hope she’s enjoying herself now. That would be worthwhile work.

what could you possibly teach me in that short, cute little skirt

The suburban, regular girl, look strikes again.

After a parenting seminar, I hear the feedback that upon first impression a woman thought surely this will be a waste of time. She thought I was too young and too thin and too cute looking in my little suit to possibly know anything new for her about parenting. (Note: that was 9 years and 2 sizes ago…and had to borrow a suit from my cool sister.)

The feedback continues…the handout I gave has become her parenting bible and she threw out all her other books. She completely got reconnected to her purpose as a mother and was experiencing the joy in her relationship with her kids. That’s touching. I’m happy for her and her kids.

And I have to wear that shorter suit skirt again sometime. Oh, wait. I can’t get it past my hips anymore. Oh, well.

that’s so simple. i don’t get it.

“That’s it!?! But it’s so simple I don’t get it.” My client kept asking me to repeat it. And she even repeated it herself. “Just love her. Just hold her. Don’t fix her right now. Just love her? That's it? Are you sure?”

The busy, and well intended suburban mom, has been pushing her daughter. Fixing her. Helping her. Trying to make it easier for her. But I could see, that her daughter just wanted to be held and accepted for who she is. “Just love her. Like she is. Right now. There’s plenty of time in the future for guiding ,teaching. Right now, she just needs to be loved. Nothing would help her more than your confidence in her. Each time you race in to give her an idea and redirect her, fix her, you are actually, though unintentionally, undermining her. Just let her be for a bit. Just love her. Just love her.”

She kept looking at me incredulously and said, “Wow. I just really don’t know how to do that. I’m always helping. I’m not sure what I’m going to do.” Just love her.

Is this the sign of our suburban, affluent times and we want the best for our kids so we push? She is such a loving mother. I hope she just stops and loves.

who needs to get high?

I’m still buzzing from my readings. Gotta come back down now. Beam me back to earth, Scotty. Just kidding. I’m actually quite grounded and really in my body, but it is such an amazing feeling and I don’t always want it to end. It feels so great being in this sacred space with others and really connecting at the heart level. Sharing their innermost beauty that they sometimes mask from others. What an honor. What beauty. I remember who I am. Ahhhh.

I know I’m not a master when I feel the up and down of the space. A true master lives in that vibration all the time. Right now, I have to make myself go in and out. It’s definitely a high. And no hangover. Sweet. I look forward to when all the moments are the same like that, without the in and out. For now, taking a walk, dancing, singing, having a sandwich, all that works for me to come back down, and I keep just a part of the buzz and send it off all around me.

time to go to work, let’s dance

Time to start the work day. Down the stairs I go. I love my commute. How should I warm up? I think I’ll dance to Rusted Root for a bit. That gets me grooving, happy, grounded and ready. Who thought spiritual work was so heavy. Like one of my teachers, Sonia Choquette, says, “Be spirited, not spiritual.”

...all i want is food and creative love....all i want is food and creative love...
Is that what they say? That's pretty smart. I'll dance to that.

Now, now I’m ready to start writing and tuning futher in.

did you know you changed my life?

“I kept watching you with your son,” he said. “The way you talk to each other is something I hadn’t seen before. It’s so natural. It’s so comfortable. Like he’s an adult. I go home and am trying all new language with my son and it is changing our relationship. He’s opening up more. He’s less angry. And I actually enjoy him. I always loved him. But now I actually like him. The slightest language change has really made a difference. Like I used to say, ‘I have to watch my son.’ Now I look forward to our time and say, ‘This is our time together. Where it used to be an intrusion on something I need to get done, now I cherish it and won’t let anything interrupt it.’

Wow. I had no idea the impact I was having. No idea. It wouldn’t change anything if I did, of course. But it just goes to show how the littlest thing can touch people. All the more reason to be loving and joyful. That’s easy with my son...I can work on it in other areas.

so, is it like fortune telling, or what?

Or what. I think each person has control over their choices and free will and I look for ways to empower that thinking. I suppose sometimes I do see the future and what will happen, but only when certain choices are already in motion and it will help the person to hold their vision, change their vision to match what they really want, or to help them prepare for how they will handle the experience.

“I don’t really get it.”

You make your own fortune. Sometimes when I work with someone, they reveal it to me through their heart when their mind is still blocking seeing it. I see it only when their heart wants the conscious mind to know.

“I still don’t get it.”

I help people get in touch with their own intuition.

“Great. I’ll do that.”

Okay.

but yesterday it was right

“But yesterday your intuition said not to go. What makes you sure it’s okay to go today? Were you just wrong yesterday? Or are you wrong today.”